looking inside a kooky brain

Chapter 100: 100 Dustbits

2011-03-16T02:02:00.000+08:00

i did not realise this was going to be 100. well, its really too bad because this post isnt gona be anything spectacular. i'l save celebrations for the 101st.

im only writing because im still wide awake at 1.30 in the morning and i couldnt stop thinking about how dirty my mum's house is. when the alert mind denies sleep, it preoccupies itself with random, irksome musings. in my case, i cant rid my thoughts of the terror that is the dust and dirt that wears my home like a layer of excessive decor.

when i get there on thurs morning, that house is gona get it from me. i cant stand the drink stains on the computer table and the bitty clumps of dust that stick to my feet when i come out of the shower.
it doesnt help that the apartment sits facing major roadways on the south, east and west corners. the only air i trust on for ventilation comes from opening the front door (even then, only by a crack)

if i had known my mom was looking at tis home a year and a half ago, id have protested violently. she tried, but i was always too tired to go look-see when she drove me home from camp.

tomorrow i'l tell her that i wish she'd ask my opinion before buying any new furniture. theres far too much impracticality i see whenever i step into the house. i cant help but feel a sense of unrest even while laying on my bed. the blacklist is long and i dont wish to spit out further insults. but this lack of discipline is ticking me off and i need to vent it - or else my mind would not allow me to sleep.

Chapter 99: Same ol'

2010-11-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Having a blog is meaningless if u got no updates to speak of.

true enough theres rly not much to say. im still waiting for the restaurant to hire me..but now its getting late. im going on holiday soon so i hav to tell them that i can only start after the trip.

meanwhile im getting on n off banqueting jobs. rws was alr rdy to sign me, my mom n friends hav got some other temp offers but i rejected all of em becos i tot i was gona start waitering in dec. so it looks like im gona b stoning at home for awhile longer

rushing my new game 'Red Dead Redemption' which i bought 2nd hand. im playing it so fast i'l probably be in time to sell it again before the price drops again on the ebay market.

i dun really like staying at my mum's. its dirty cos no one bothers to clean it. i wish she'd consult me before buying all tht problematic furniture.

Chapter 98: Unemployed

2010-11-06T11:19:00.001+08:00

ORD - ive hit another milestone in life. from here on out seeing people in uniform will make me feel old at every occasion.

i believe my peers suffered more than i did in army. i didnt gush out a sigh of relief at getting hold of my i/c for the first time in a long while. becos that sigh came about 11 mths ago, when i threw my peak cap into the air to the sound of cliff richard's Congratulations.

life has been good to me in my 2nd year as an nsf. some of my frens had decided to extend a few more months of service becos well, their work is really not too bad. who else is willing to pay you $2k+ when you just got a measly alevel cert.

of course i din get away without some brainwashing. my dept offered me a job but i turned it down. the pay is attractive, the number of upcoming icts can be counted with one hand. but i feel that when its time to go, its really time to go. i need the job experience in another environment.. the extra income is just a bonus.

i cant afford to take a break. even if i take up multiple jobs, give tuition AND take driving at the same time. there will still be insufferable moments of staring into blank space during the next 10 months before schooling starts. and i really hate staring into space..it annoys me to no end.

so yea. pops just came back with the straits times. gonna scan the recruits right now

Chapter 97: Smoke Out

2010-10-28T14:42:00.000+08:00

I'm a supporter of a system that works. Even a perfect system will eventually collapse upon its own weight.
I dont really want to elaborate on that..just happened to pop up while i was zoning out on the bus.

My last outfield in active service ended yesterday. really couldnt wait to f.o. from camp. i did contemplate on staying-in since it was late. but i thought, nah...Fuck that shit.
on the way out i actually met the canteen uncle who offered to gimme a ride out. so happens that he stays near my area...lucky me getting a free ride home :)

tis weekend i'l be selling off fallout 3 and pes 2011. am getting really sick of the long hours of fallout's quests which, thank jesus, have finally ended. i bought pes at a real bargain. but im looking for that little extra spice that only the winning eleven version can provide. the differences are subtle, but stick out like a sore pinky for the experienced player.

Chapter 96: Last Duty..Forever

2010-10-16T19:35:00.003+08:00

I just finished what would be my last duty before i ORD. friends are exclaiming how close it is to the end..i on the other hand still remain somewhat nonchalant compared to the rest of them.

I feel that my dept is easing up on me..giving me less work. or maybe its just me being usually pro at siaming arrows. sadly i have to spend my last 2 weeks at gedong...which is to me, not as homely or familiar as base camp. actually, its just plain lousy becos its ulu and dusty outfield.

Feeling like a civilian already. passing my ftt today with full marks brightens up future driving lessons to come. soon i'l be wrecking someone's car, rampaging down the streets of sg. nah kiddin. im a really safe driver, learn from my dad who has good driving habits.

The other day i was scanning the job ads on the Newpaper. was rather amused seeing ads for male waiters categorizing itself with other ads calling for social escorts. nonetheless im probably going for an odd job rather than a fulltime admin/clerical assistant type.

i haven't run out of money yet but i might soon after Taiwan. better get the latest winning 11 before my limited wealth comes to nothing.

Chapter 95: Almost Time to be Serious

2010-10-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

Came back from thailand early today morning. Time really flies when ure busy. Overall it was a good trip, a rather 'refreshing' change of work environment.

going there as a support staff is much better than going there as training troop. lots more free time and i hardly need to meet timings.

didnt spend much...i think about 1500baht at most. that amounts to abt 75 bucks in local moola. i tried out their traditional thai massage. 180 baht (9 sing) for an hour. pretty good. i was glad their head compressions didnt cause any bouts of nausea.

the rnr was nonsense to say the least. only one day.. but when u consider that we only went to 4 venues and spend half an hour at each location and the rest of the time travelling from place to place, it. just. sucked.

wont talk much abt training. becos frankly, i was just chao kenging around, dodging arrows like a pro.

the NSmen spat on me. they told me choosing engineering was making the worst decision of my life. and tis comes at a time when im most uncertain about my career path. even the engineers amongst them were advising me to shun this stagnant, crawling industry. maybe i should have done something like law. med is still not for me, and likely will never be. u cant put med on 1st choice then have law take its place behind it.

the reservice guys also suggested business. HEY, maybe thats where all the money has always been? not that i was never aware of that. with a thirst for riches like mine, the idea of being a say, trader, is somewhat enticing. i tink my economics can be saved, no worries. whats a 'B' on my alevel cert when i decide to resuscitate my dying knowledge and interest of the financial world?

im sensing a course change is nearly in place. but first i need to figure out how im gona let my parents know of tis. a wrong move could result in bad shock on the receiving end.

Chapter 94: I Like It Short

2010-09-12T13:47:00.001+08:00

I have a strange preference for girls with short hair. theres a theory that suggests that the people who attract you resemble your parents in some way.

but anw e title up there refers to my posts.

life is tough at my dad's place. theres nth to do arnd here and the comp is practically an ancient. bored ttfm.

thailand trip tis coming week...and i heard the weather is not good. scorching in the day and wet wet at night. good luck to moi.

on a side note. i jus tot of one resolution for the new year. be more friendly. didnt realise i have so few friends on fb. been rejecting a fren too many perhaps

this blog really needs some pics to colourise the reading experience.

Chapter 93: How About

2010-09-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

a short post?

the recent(last couple of posts) lack of inspiration stems from wat i tink is the recurring boredom i face in both camp AND at home. the only useful thing i did in the last few weeks was going for morning runs and doing DO for one day.

my ps3 is losing its appeal. i rly tink im growing out of it. tot i nvr would. (honestly i envisioned myself swooning over the latest game console at 60 yrs of age.) im struggling to complete the games not becos their difficult..but they just drag on and on...till once i even fell asleep playing.

the thailand trip shud rejuvenate me somewhat. actually having work to do isnt all tht bad.

hmm and i like a girl my friend intro'ed me online. havent been so impressed since i broke up. sigh. but shes out of even mr fantastic's extensive reach. lovesick?

Chapter 92: Re-Evaluation

2010-08-22T13:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes i reallyyy wonder if engineering is the right choice. money making is always lingering on the back of my mind, and you and i know that this career path is unlikely to lead me to a bankfull of cash.

then theres also a part of me that tinks im a science guy. results show im better at math n science, a phailure at humanities. does that mean i wont do well in saayy...law for example? but hey. my GP did get an A..?

business is definitely not my cup of tea. im not fond of competition. looking at the number of business graduates being churned out every year... id rather not join the fray when i clearly do not have the business acumen. i kknow thats where the money lies..but surely there are better ways up that ladder.

materials engineering is a new course. to be honest i dont have a clear picture of what my career prospects are. heck i don even noe what i'l be studying. people ask: materials engineering study what one? duno. but i believe its 'up-and-coming'. its hard to explain. maybe in another post when ive found out more. degree courses dont just appear for the fun of it.

let me tell u something. i just love the imagination that games portray. especially their depictions of the future.. the social, political landscapes and out-of-this-world technology. i dont know of Anyone who admires these things like i do. even those who play these games just shrug it off as some light amusement. fiction does turn into reality i tell you.
and i hope to MAKE it possible. or at least be part of a technological revolution in my lifetime.

come to think of it. i probably would have loved it at MIT. sounds like a geek haven.

Chapter 91: Advance to ORD

2010-08-09T11:39:00.003+08:00

I grew tired of seeing my pri sch composition whenever i visited my blog. So I finally decided to add on to the post count. besides..its another boring national day at home. same ol' parade which you'll remember to turn on the TV to watch after u hear the jets fly past yr home.

about 3mths to ORD. been waiting for this since the day i enlisted. wont say i had a torrid time in ns tho. made gd frens, learnt useful and ugly things about the working world. more importantly i was paid for it. wihtout the last point i wldnt give a flying dam abt the rest.

but before i say gdbye to all this...i still gt to run the half marathon, go thai once more and work thru another 2 weeks of ns training. hmm doesnt sound too bad? well the rest of the time i'l be trying my most sneaky bastardly of ways to siam arrows.

life will definitely be different after ORD. no income thts one. i must must get a job. else id be chking my wallet evry other day to make sure i didnt unknowingly blow a hole in it. not to forget i still got a driving license to procure...
btr get it done n over with asap.
then theres the taiwan holiday im planning to go on with my frens. thts rly gona hurt but its one of the things tht must be done when u got almos a year to spare before school starts.

lots to think abt as i come closer to ord.

Chapter 90: Near-Miss

2010-06-25T19:41:00.004+08:00

I was crossing the road home today, and nearly got knocked down by a motorcycle. I knew somehow something was up. like spidey's tingly senses..or perhaps just the Force doing its mojo. that fknut was speeding like a roadrunner on drugs. when i stepped off the curb, he just jumped a traffic light(already amber) 100m away. the Force told me to run so i ran..and made it.. just barely. I turned around, wanting to see tht fknut and who he was, but i saw a woman first. she obviously wasnt aware of the oncoming danger. and the bike, too trashed up to decelerate in time, probably also a fault of the boxes of pizza the biker was carrying, hit her.. sent her both flying and spinning on the spot.

thankfully she didnt die.

geez.. w'da fuck did i have to see the whole thing. i was stunned there with my jaw out of possible human anatomy for at least a minute. luckily people tended to her.

oh as i write to tis point, i see an ambulance arriving. thats right...it happened just below my hse.

anw i didnt stay to see the biker come to realisation that his pizza delivery days were over. and the woman looked fine..altho she was sitting at the midsection recovering from shock. i just went home believing that im finally intune with the force.......no, kidding haha. im just one lucky fuck. if you dont believe in luck then fine...believe in God, believe that He saved my life today.

sighz. never in my life wld i tink id get to see sth like tis. gotta admit its a weebit traumatising. n u cant say its the pizza boy's fault. that woman wasnt paying attn to the road at all.
maybe she was down and sulking becos she had a bad day.
maybe the pizzaboy was one late delivery from fking up his job.

maybe this accident taught everyone, even me, a lesson we damn well deserved.

Chapter 89: Oh. So Thats Why I'm Broke

2010-06-05T17:37:00.006+08:00

I just did a calculation on how much i spent on my PS3 games...and SHIT, its no baby sum. all in all i estimated that i paid abt 500 dollars for about 10 plus games. 500 is quite epic. i mean...King Leonidas held of a 10,000 strong Persian army with 300 guys..(but died) Can't imagine the outcome if he had another 200.

point is i didnt realise ive been spending so much until now. perhaps one thing i can take comfort in is that i haven bought a game in a few mths now...and it used to be two every mth. also, i nvr buy just-realeased games (except once i bought fallout 3 game of the year edition at 90 bucks without thinking) which will usually just cheapen by 20 to 30 dollars over a period of 2 to 3 mths.

ytd i put up some of the games on ebay; those that ive completed and probably won't be playing anytime in the forseeable future. i want to get some money back.. to support the continuation of my gaming hobby. initially i tot...who on god's earth wants to buy my GTA4? (which will officially become 3rd hand when it changes hands) when its been out for um gee almost 2 years now. but how wrong i was. few hours later i got a question from a buyer itching to click the 'Buy-It-Now!' button.

my only regret was to list it at such a low price...lol.

below is a commercial for the obama campaign. its a parody of the budweiser beer commercial.. both are pretty funny.

and this is the one 8 years before. theyre the same dudes lol!

Chapter 88: Spam skill points to Arrow-Siaming Perk

2010-05-30T17:46:00.003+08:00

ive been in an office environment for nearly 5 mths now...and i must say that the glimpse of the working world im getting isnt v pretty at all. serving NS isnt exactly a real job for me but i work with people who make their careers in the army. office politics, put it simply, is abt one person not liking the other person, who unfortunately, happens to be a colleague. thankfully im not yet part of this cruel, devious world where knives get stabbed in your back and u wont know its there until someone directs yr attention to it.

mutual dislike doesnt bother me much. im a typical NSF.. serve n F off. screwing up my job wont get me sacked. doing it well wont get me a pay-rise. basically theres no incentive to apply effort and thought in the everyday things we do at 'work'. but at least i'l do what is required of me.
what ticks me off is the arrows which seem fly in directions that is totally opposite the right target boards. being the smallest fry in the office, the higher ups conveniently shoot one down because well..no regular wants to do it. as if they arent alr living off the army, taking home a salary which they hardly deserve. then again, the organisation needs to pay that much to keep ppl in the force.. who else wants to wear green to work for the rest of their lives. of course i wont say that all of them r free loaders. i know of ppl who work hard for their ricebowl and are recognised/rewarded for it.

im leaving soon and im glad. meantime im still trying hard to dodge arrows wherever and whenever they come.

ytd i cancelled on a toy deal. i almos gave away 850 dollars carelessly. luckily, sth urged me to take a closer look at the toys, read the reviews and make a more informed decision. i offered a counter proposal, the seller wouldnt budge so neither of us gave away. if tht deal had went thru, i would be so poor that i probably will not eat at any restaurant, not even macs, for the rest of the year. that idea just didnt go down with me.

was watching harry potter on my ipod just now. i jus realised that cedric diggory is robert pattinson hahahaha. i still tink its qt incredible that ppl like emma watson, who are e same age as i am, made it rich n big. lol...some ppl are really lucky...

Chapter 87: Life Goes On

2010-05-12T19:01:00.002+08:00

"Life goes on" is my big boss's favourite phrase. Its like "blah blah blah...life goes on laah! you know?" Half the time i dont.

I bought 2 toys at a bargain some weeks back. Kotobukiya's Commander Bly and the trooper from the 501st..both statues. I spotted it on display in a shop at CSC just when i was about to leave. Practically jumped on it when i saw the eye-popping price tag. Some might say impulse buying but ive actually been eyeing them for qt some time. OK, it wasnt first hand but it looked reasonably well conditioned. None of my toys are first hand anyway. frankly i dont tink it has to be first hand as long as it serves it primary function to a satisfactory level ie. to display itself.
No pics because i dont have a proper cam at my father's place. Maybe next time. anw they look great under the ceiling spotlights.

I was thinking that when i go to uni, im gona take up badminton. all my life ive played all sorts of ball games, racket games yet i never took anyone of them seriously. i was abt to settle on tennis.. but realised it wasnt sustainable cos hardly any of my frens play it. sad.
i cant play bball competitively...too late to start gaining live court experience. soccer nids a hell lot of ppl to be fun. these i love but just not v convenient.
badminton is therefore the solution. time to get a racket.

damnn.. wat a boring post tis is. i myself got bored reading the draft

Chapter 86: Crisis Solved

2010-05-01T22:25:00.005+08:00

the past week was hell for me.
Monday i had a meeting to coordinate certain details on the training prog i drew up. After that, i had to rush out minutes using a template that blows in formatting. I couldnt finish it so i decided to carry on the next day.
Tuesday I made an enquiry to another office and nearly got my heart seized upon receiving the reply. I called frens for contacts of people who could perhaps solve the problem. I sent emails in a flurry hoping to get a favourable reply. It came 4 hours later without really providing an answer to my desperate question. The other party proposed an arrangement which wasnt that good so i counter proposed. He rang me up immediately and explained the situation. basically he gave me no choice and i had to take up the offer. Boss had already left...so i decided to tell him the next day. Wednesday I told Boss that i had to shuffle the training prog. He gave me an alternative solution...it sucked but i had to give it a try. I asked a major for help...he kindly agreed. problem solved? no.
Thursday i told the guy who called me that i wont need his help anymore. He said impossible. I cannot not need his help becos its the effing training directive. WTF. back to Boss who gave me the go ahead to shuffle the timetable. sent it for approval 3 levels up.
Friday I had no mood to work so i jus wasted the day sleeping in front of my desk.

sighz. anyways ive got hard evidence that im getting old. i used to be able to remember the controls of all the games i played back when they were pirated and abundant. now, i struggle to even recall the buttons for 3 or 4 games that i currently play. i tink thats why people eventually grow out of games. one day you'l find that you just cant keep up.

Kick-Ass was a nice movie. The action scenes were definitely kick-ass what with epic john murphy music accompaniment. if any of you are looking for a fun kiddy joyride.. please. don' even go near it.

Chapter 85: Plans for the Week

2010-04-11T21:05:00.006+08:00

gee u know what. its not that im perpetually bored.. just that i get bored too easily. ytd i went out with lq and yl to play ball at jp (lq stays on top of jp). then we decided to watch a movie. i was skeptical abt 'date night' but hey, it turned out ok. then we called zp along for dinner. hes a sect comd in some SIR now.. i cant rmb which, but basically he was complaining abt his sucky spec life. i disagree, i tink alot of specs are livin' it in the army.
so anyway since there was time to spare after the show, we decided to pop by safra to play l4d2. playing lan with frens is always fun. i dun rmb a day when i had a bad day in a lan shop when frens were dere.
back home, bro was once again on the ps3. my ps3. at least hes contributing to the game collection now.
speaking of which, i found out today that squareenix betrayed ps3 fans by releasing ff13 on the xbox. FML ff13 is like 50 percent of the reason why i chose the ps3 over the stupid box. $%!$^%^&*&%&!@#!#
screw that. the xbox cant match up to the ps3's prowess. guess xbox users will just have to make do with a less-than-perfect version of the latest final fantasy.

another f-ing boring week in camp coming up. my upperstudy theorizes that when ppl got nothing to do, we yaya say sibei sian. but got something to do, we complain kena shot by arrow. it was due to be another week of ipod video watching in the office until my dept got tasked to conduct games for the coming anniversary. big sighz

i'l visit the library either mon or tue to return my library books. wed im on duty so that rly makes me wanna go home on thur but noo...anniversary falls on a stinkin friday. and since my dept is involved, likely i have to wake up early on fri to set things up. shit. looks like a stay-in week for me.

i moved to chinese garden last fri. cant believe i took leave for that... didnt do anyting remotely useful. i mean, my bro could have done most of the unpacking anw. in fact we were 90 percent done by saturday. im staying at parc oasis now. its a really nice place, but the apartment itself is much smaller than my old flat. im still sharing a room with my bro..which is now half the size of wat we use to have.
im starting to miss the simple life already.

its been a long time since ive had any multimedia posted in any of my posts. i used to make the effort becos it partly encouraged me to visit my own blog.
however, youtube keeps removing the vids frm their own site. thts just poor imo.

i quite like this song, and the vid. rarely i like both..telephone is an exception as well hahaha but i wun put tht here..too lengthy. love it tho. like the lady in the mv as well... not as prolific as charlize theron but still a more than decent find.

Chapter 84: 3 Months On

2010-03-13T20:42:00.004+08:00

can't possibly let this die before it reaches 100. good thing i even counted the posts in the first place. failing to reach such a simple goal doesnt speak well for any blogger.

well im 20 now. technically no more a teen. ...sevenTEEN eighTEEN nineTEEN. twenty. boomz. straggling in between adulthood and kiddiness. but im beginning to discover that im actually ageing

fark. i just lost $1500 on zygna's poker Facebook. pretty fun when its not real money. id never gamble for real. im too stingy to even risk money like that.

i think im writing again because im bored again. not that i was never not bored, but seeing people updating their blogs makes me feel like i should do so too.
mom says we're moving house soon..once the renovations are completed. quite excited..so i decided to pack about 30 percent of my things today. threw away all my comic books, filter out the memorablia of yester years..realising that some things i dont even remember how they got into my hands in the first place.

btw i got my ipod touch a few weeks ago. screwed up the bloody protection screen..but at least my fren said the case was nice. i dont really like it tho...gona replace everything once it gets reasonably old. i watch videos more than i listen music on it. been catching up on alot of TV series that i keep telling myself to watch over the weekends..but never really got to it. batt life only spans up to 6 hrs if purely used to watch videos. sad to say not many devices can even beat that. today i paid for a 99 cent game app. maybe its good? pray its good..

3 months on as a 2LT, life's been pretty good in the army. my job has variety..and time for lulling around. nsmen are funny sometimes. i also get to spend alot more time at home..but of course i stay-in when neccessary..and its not bad either. saves qt a fair bit of money.
a little more than 7 mths to ORD. of which 2 months will be so darn busy time will jus swoop by. if i go thailand again, that shaves another 1 month off. next month i'l be free of NS training..so that leaves 3 months of on and off work.blah.useless thoughts.

sometimes i get angry and i tell myself that later i'l pen it all down in my blog..discuss it..or rather..rant about how effed up things can be. but not long after.. e pissifying stuff simply subsides. i move on, along with the rest of the world.. as tho my moment of failure was never even significant to sway the planet a millidegree off its natural axis. life's too short to be wasting time cursing everything else that you think gave u a bad day.

Chapter 83: 2-0-1-0

2010-01-04T22:02:00.002+08:00

is it too late to make resolutions? i hope not..
brushed those ideas aside as 2009 went by and 2010 came. i tink ive said this before last year..about resolutions. why make new ones when ive forgotten about last year's.. heck i dun even rmb wad i resolved for last year. maybe id have to dig back for an ancient post to recall. okay maybe my blog aint that old.

i started off the new year missing the countdown. avatar kinda stretched past midnight on new year's eve. then theres my sickness. one of the more serious ones in awhile, a 'lung infection' the doc said. but it wont be a problem im sure.. e antibiotic doses i was given were pretty large.

this year's number 1 - licence to drive. getting a car can come second. unlike rich boy chris, fellow colleague...i dont tink i'l b driving a Z4 to work anytime soon.

number 2 - join church activities. meet people. actually.. just girls tbh. HAHA
-.O
fk u mark.ure a dick.

number 3 - pick up a skill. musical? or maybe another language. why? dunno. i tink i have no musical talent whatsoever. i cant come up with a tune by trial/error or even by accident. no 'sense' of music perhaps.

number 4 - figure out which stuff goes to my dad's place and which stuff goes to my mom's. this year i'l b moving out of my current house of 10 years plus. served me well all these years...due to its optimal distance from pri AND sec AND jc schools. tho ive sometimes wish i went to AC instead.
playstation goes wherever the better TV is.

number 5 - plan for a backpacking trip. BMT frens have decided to put me in charge of this project. after ns we'll fly off to some place to have some fun and some ORDing to celebrate.

Chapter 82: Ache

2009-12-28T22:57:00.003+08:00

this isnt a sudden urge to write or anyting..im just writing to do justice to my blog. many things have happened since um.. oct or whenever my last post was. ive completed the last phase of engr training in thai and subsequently ended my last few weeks in ocs leading up to my commission.

ive had a taste of officer life. only a taste becos ive only attended 2-3 days of 'work' until they told me to clear leave for the rest of the year. theres alot more freedom for sure. i work mainly in an office, i have my own desk.. no more chiong sua-ing, bashing thru vegetation like a crazy monkey.
but thts just me. my appointment doesnt rly require me to take charge of 'men'.

i dun particularly like this pic. this was scanned in..but the actual is pretty bad too. anw it looks like it came out of the orbituary or sth. yuck.

im on leave now. but wat the fish...i have to spend it lying in bed all day, waking up to take my meals and do weird stuff like writing on the blog. my 2 new books came in by post this afternoon but im not even in the mood to read them. sighz...i should be out catching Avatar in 3D! but no..i just had to get a headache right after Xmas. and my body is aching all over sheez

was planning to enrol into driving sch within these 2 days.but heck..looks like im gona hav to postpone tht yet again.sighz. stupid headache

Chapter 81: Mother Hen

2009-10-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

going back to the 'good ol' ways of entertainment. anime, reading and hopefully some american drama. tmr guard duty..perhaps i'l get started on Twilight..like finally. i never got past the first chapter since i got hold of it some time ago.

i always find it hard to believe that cartoons can actually make me sad when their tear jerking scenes come on. and i still rmb this scene from a couple mths ago..bleach. ive managed to pluck tht part of it up from youtube. dun tink it means much to anyone else but its there anyways..i like to watch it sometimes.

never thought i'd pity the bad guy.

clubbing is fun..but not exactly the cheapest kind of thing to do. and theres no gurantee every night will be a good night..especially when u happen to drink stuff that just dun go tgt.
many of the guys im with in Combat E 'chiong' rather frequently. every week is too hardcore for me..but going once in a while is actually quite a social welcome.

ive reduced spending on my ps3, not for dance n drinks, but for other eceteras like clothes and erm..accessories? of course good fd too. previously im damn stingy when it comes to clothes..since i didnt find it important to dress nicely. but people actually notice when u start to make an effort..

Chapter 80: Life is Tough, I'm Foaming

2009-09-06T21:17:00.002+08:00

been dying these past few weeks.. that explains the long hiatus. despite being able to book out on fridays, there doesnt seem to be much more book out time.

rj guys seem to like using the word 'foaming' alot. its supposed to mean that they are struggling or having problems in some manner..probably as a joking expression. for e.g.

"hey you know how to do this or not?"

"duno leh, i'm foaming damn deep man."

whatever it is..the way they talk is pretty amusing.

the highlights of previous weeks? hmm. close to none. but lets not discredit the fact that i completed MGS4, got me gripped from start to end. plus i went clubbing for the first time, awesome experience..but sean has promised better next time. will look fwrd to it.

i think my wisdom tooth is pushing against my molar. the pain comes every now and then..i guess the next time a visit the dentist again i'l consult him about this pricking issue.

just bought a new set of toys. too lazy to take pictures for now. maybe next time when i have a nice display case..filled w toys..then i'l take a pic of it.

i wont talk to much abt my time in NS. God knows if my instructors are reading cadets' blogs.

and big bang is back with a brand new collab with 2NE1. lots of chemistry and energy. good stuffs.

Chapter 79: 7 minutes

2009-08-01T01:21:00.004+08:00

2nd week of basic engineer training.. all the infantry stuff nearly washed out of my mind. schedule is very rushed, so much so that one of the major exercises has been postponed to the end of our term, which is about 4 mths away. uncountable number of practicals already..i'l be firing off explosives in no time.

the rashes on my thighs developed into some sorta fungal infection. had to see a doc to get some med..its much better now. my feet are in a horrible condition..cuts that cannot heal on wkdays becos i wear boots everyday, weird bumps that look nothing like something good. being a cadet has given me many problems..but i admit my brain is better utilized learning something rather than stone around in the bunk all day.

the wing2 is an example of some1 who represents the saf's past regimentation schemes well. making a fuss out of not paying compliments, non identical attire and varying standards. out of the 2 or 3 times he addressed us.. we were either worshipping the ground or being shouted at. after making us repeatedly load the stores on and off the tonner, he blamed us for being late for dinner. being 'anal' is what people would describe it. 7minute tonner turnout was jus a warmup for him, we'l be expecting worse.

i get to book out on fridays if time permits. provided we log in to an elearning portal on saturday mornings to readup and such. so far its been great. i like the platoon. didnt feel very welcome in tango..but here its different..and thats cool for me. maybe back then i brought it upon myself to resent the infantry..thats why i deliberately depressed myself during service term as an infantryman. ive met new characters that are certainly interesting..haha..the smartest ppl..elite school or not.. seem to be the funniest and more eccentric kinds. nice to know such peeps.

Chapter 78: Coke is Best

2009-07-17T20:39:00.006+08:00

i got my PS3 the other day. just one day after my prev post to be exact. after all that talk about dilemna, i took a train downtown the next morning to buy it. yes..many people have said that i am a fickle minded person. true, true..

these days im craving for coke very much. i almost fainted from bliss after sipping the macdonalds coke a few days ago. sheez..the caffeine is really getting to me. mmm...coca colaa

ok i seem to be the only guy in the whole wide world whos not planning to catch potter. thing is..i missed the previous installment..um what was it..after goblet was...oh yes the phoenix. i suppose its ok to miss it..since i did finish reading the books.

only have 3 games on the PS now. all of them are gd..cant afford to make a mistake in the selection when each game costs an average 50 bucks apiece. the metal gear franchise never fails to impress. from the day i demo-ed a very early mgs on the gameboy colour to today's MGS4 on the ps3, i still love it. epic storyline, very cool charcters and evolving gameplay.. the perfect chemistry for an unbeatable gaming experience. kojima is really a genius of some sort. sometimes i wish i could work for someone with such capacity for imagination and creativity.
i feel that i take gaming more seriously than many others. my facebook profile pic is of me and my ps3..like as if i married my playstation or sth. hahs..ridiculous me

well i just moved to my new camp ytd. after a very goood block leave. then booked out today lol. its just been barely a day..so i wont make any judgements as of yet. hopefully life will be gd (..but rly i wish for slackness) and we all get settled into the new way of things. the school looks new because its just been repainted. the food is better and my bunk is nxt to the stairs. my bunkmate is a regular...5 years in the army..ex-platoon sergeant who got recommended by his superior to join the officer course. you can pretty much tell how good he could be with his experience in the army so far.

Chapter 77: Boom Boom Chemical!

2009-07-08T23:04:00.003+08:00

for once they told us the truth. nearly everything they said about brunei, mt. biang and socjot were true. and im back after 10 days away from the mainland.

didnt go there for a holiday thats for sure. travelling there itself was enough to shag you out. a 2 hour flight coupled with bus and ferry rides in the wee hours of the morning..i had reached camp at 7am in the morning. our accommodation was decent, i might have expected less. the barracks could fit a whole arms in one floor.

its alot more relaxed there. no1 would care if we slept during working hours becos our schedule results in us having to sleep late and wake up early everyday. training in general is very different from what we've had so far. the food is a hell lot better. in fact, id welcome a break from saf's sg food industries anytime.

the engineers are a fun people. i went there not knowing anybody, but i came back getting acquainted with a nice handful of them. somehow im more comfortable around them than with my tango mates.

many funny events happened during the 'mission'. whole teams split, lost contact and convoys as large as 7 teams 'hor lan'-ded together, squandering half day leads wandering around the mountain jungle aimlessly. lawls.
if it hadnt rained during the duration of the exercise, it would have easily been a walk in the park. there was not one day where i didnt have to dry my socks in front of a fire my team made. even then, they would be cold and slightly damp due to the dew in the mornings before we move out.
my boots have endured the elements of Earth, Water and Wind..my friend nearly burned his boots so his had experienced Fire.
my rashes are pretty bad at the moment. and i got sandfly/mozzie bites everywhere. abrasions..cuts..sure have but they are more or less dried up. surprisingly the fire ants are more friendly compared to the ones in sg. they left me alone for the most while.

relax n recreation was cancelled cos the Bruneian authorities wanted to control the spread of flu or sumtin. most of the h1n1 cases there are 'imported' from foreigners entering the country. to make up for it we jus had some movie screenings in camp. still quite free and easy i guess.
im supposed to take tamiflu cos this guy in my group apparently caught some flu..influenzaA which means theres a chance he could be infected by swine. but the drugs have some serious side effects. nausea, heartburn..zz. i thought i acquired air sickness when i was flying back.

i was actually this close to finally getting a ps3. then i read that sony has a series of big stuff lined up that would naturally send my original plans into the bin. first of all theres set to be a package where 2 games will be sold together with the console at the price of the console itself.. of which 1 of the games is MGS4. i dun rly give a flying fish about the other game.
den rumors say this is all to pave the way for a new PS3 SLIM once inventories of the old ps3 are cleared. the slim ps3 is said to be cheaper becus logically the smaller/ reduced components should cost less. at least that was the case for the ps2 slim. im in a serious dilemna right now. i do not wish to wait for the slim, but im not so certain about missin out on the bundle. problem is..shipping could take some tym.

looks like block leave will still be ps3-absent.(?)

Chapter 76: One For Tango No More

2009-06-28T01:19:00.003+08:00

its been eternity since i last blogged. i can't help it. having so little time to myself..blogging just takes backstage these days.

life is full of worries. ive been worrying since i was in nursery. worrying if my parents were comin to pick me up. in kindergarten, the drama lessons. worry in pri sch because i forgot to bring my homework to school..then get a spankin' on the palms. worry in secondary sch cuz there were tests comin up. and in jc i stress myself to keep out of the fail zone.
right now, at home, i cant rest without sparing some thought about my new vocation with the combat Es, the sudden trip to brunei and a new camp with an altogether new buncha people.

anw im out of tango. i had memorable 2nd last day where i drew an MG and didnt clean it. wsm found out and gave me a one times easy defaulters'. id take a defaulter over extras anytime. there was this guy who booked in with a not-so-up-to-standard pants and got 7 extras for it. good luck to him cos its stickin with him to whichever unit hes been posted to.

im gona try out for the chemical biological radiological explosives unit. im counting on other cadets shunning tht option becos of the MOPPing up. they can all fight to get into explomo for all i care.

maybe id get in easily since im a pr. who knows, im probably an expendable nsf soldier..wouldnt matter much if i blew myself up by accident eh.

Chapter 75: Pinnacle Exercise

2009-06-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

back from yet another field camp. outfield stinks. not being able to bathe, eat fresh food and having even less sleep than usual. this time round my buddy and i dug a trench deep enough to bury 3 people. i slept like 2 measly hours over a 60 hour period. the point is..its over so im happy, everyone's happy.

service term is coming to an end. today's comms parade reminded me that im already 1/3 of the way there. lta ray asked me if i ever gave a thought about what being an officer of the saf means to me. hes a nice approachable guy. ive never heard of a social smoker until i met him.

finally a decent bookout has come by. monday is gonna be free for me so i'l be sure to spend it with extreme prudence.

a virtue i value most is patience. when people get impatient, they lose their cool and themselves. once u pop the cap, the whole world sees this one ugly side of you that they will never forget. anger is an emotion that must be suppressed.i believe it is a display of personal discipline and mental strength. seeing fellow cadets reveal their innermost characters during camp leaves me disappointed with some of them..and at the same time grow in admiration for the very best in the platoon.

anger is the first step toward the dark side.

Chapter 74: I Want RPG

2009-05-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

it has just occurred to me that its been a long time since i last laid my hands on an RPG. lately ive been so engrossed creating violence in RTS and shooters that im that close to forgetting how to play rpg. now that i have oct pay, investing in a ps3 doesnt sound too farfetched an idea after all.

today i booked out with half the wing. the other half stayed back for defaulters parade or remedial training. the whole week was tense, and extreme care was taken not to get in the way of the sgt maj. it was a fight for survival, doing our utmost to keep every minute of our bookout intact. some very unlucky ones failed at the very last minute, when r.o. was given, right before we were going to march out.

i want to carry on to the next term. start afresh, away from this wing and the platoon. i cant mix with many of the guys in my platoon, though not all of them are a problem. sick of the infantry having screwed up bookout timings almost every week.

went to catch star trek last wkend. i think the movie changed my perception that the whole franchise is old, crumbling and waiting to be lost at the back of everyone's minds. in fact, its probably one of those movies that are actually worth buying e dvd to rewatch at home.

anw my bunkmate intro this song to me when we were using the comp to play songs. its old, but ive never heard it before then, so naturally it sounds pretty nice.

imeem is bloody cocked up. hosting incomplete songs simply destroys the ambience of this blog

Chapter 73: Everyday is a Good Training Day

2009-05-23T14:25:00.003+08:00

im back from a 10- day field camp at P.Tekong. i feel that it is my duty to not divulge any details about the camp because every cadet will have their experiences and theres no fun in revealing too much. every wing does things differently..and for us, having best learning conditions was our first priority.

so far in the past 9 or 10 weeks in ocs i have only seen the civilian world for no more than 5 days. it makes me so happy just to step into the mrt train at joo koon and seeing real people going about their business. havent i said this before? i dont remember. the fact is i am constantly reminded of how much i dislike the army whenever i get a fresh breath of freedom.

in the last 2 weeks, 2 of my friends have lost a loved one. one recieved news that his father passed away during the field camp itself. another had a friend who was still undergoing bmt when he met with some incident that cost him his life. morale is low to the max these days. we could have booked out ytd night but instead all of us were to be held back by a 5 and half day work week rule. about 4 people were confined for making punishable mistakes during camp..they really have it hard on them. no one in the right mind wants to stay in after 2 weeks of not being able to go home.

anw..lotsa good movies comin out in the summer season..and i plan to catch all of em.

Chapter 72: Pushing the Ground with Happiness

2009-04-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

i touch my blog so rarely nowadays that its probably causing me to lose interest in penning down my thoughts. its the same for almos all things.. not doing something for a long time and the momentum is eventually lost.

pushing the ground with happiness. i like the way our captain puts it. how do u do it? well theres really only one way that is possible. got my hands burned today in the midst of doing so. just know that we were late by a minute under a scorching noon sun at the parade sq.

i shud have came home ytd. we didnt do shit all morning 'cept play soccer. some others prefered to train at the gym/track because they haven gotten their 1 times Gold. which brings me to my breaking of 2 new life records. finally did 12 pulls and ran 2400m in 9min + - 10 sec. like they always say.. we'l be the most healthy and fit at this point of our lives. never again will i accomplish such feats once im out of the school.

Chapter 71: Life So Far

2009-04-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

OCS is very different from bmtc. a school run by leaders, for leaders. you can tell that most of the cadets there have strong leadership qualities..outspoken, garang, competent and enthusiastic. qt often i wonder wad on earth im doing there. friends who know me are able to make out that im not that sort of person. then there are those who look at me and say that im better than the average follower. im gona play along and see how it goes. fortunately im still sane and doing fine.

ive actually gone back to my old self. reserved, low profile and all that. wasnt like that in bmt.. whr it was much more fun and i could open up to the cheery ppl arnd me. the cadets in my platoon seem to have a whole different level of humour..i just dont understand what goes on in their heads.

3 people have gone out of course in my plt. due to injury or something. i know about 10 others who have sustained some sort of mild injury or another during the course of ns thus far. these start out harmless but eventually worsens..resulting in rather serious repurcussions. i tink my ankle injury of 4 years ago is starting to show its after effects from running so much. sigh

theres so much pt in ocs im nearly bored of it. my thighs have enlarged by at least 20 percent since i came in. and ive done close to a thousand pushups in 2 wks..tho it doesnt seem to define any of my abs.
i get so little time to myself evryday. and even when i bookout i have only about 24 hours of freedom and a good recharge. out of the 24 i sleep for 7 hrs, that leaves 17 hrs. i will surely watch at least 2 movies, that gives 13 hrs or so remaining. 13 hours to slack in a week of 24 times 7 hours.

i will never be tricked to sign on. civilian life beats the military hands down anytime. theres rly no need to don your greens any longer than u r required to do so.

lastly, i miss coca cola.

Chapter 70: Menage Doux Menage

2009-04-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

the title is french for home sweeet home! nah i havent got a sudden liking for the lang. i just felt like doin sth stupid like tht. anw im home after being confined for nearly 3 wks at OCS. tho i hav a comp in my bunk i didnt dare touch any blogs tht linked directly or indirectly to my own. all my activities on the net are tracked as well. theres no youtube.. makes it entirely pointless to use the internet at all.

i wont blog abt my experiences in camp..but i'l chat with frens and tell them abt it. in my new wing, tango, cadets sign extras like no tmr..so its best to be careful.

tho its been 3 weeks.. ive got nothing much to say. many things have happened lah..no idea how im gonna put it into words. just being a bum haha

anw ive been offered my first choice at both nus and ntu but i havent accepted yet. partly becos im too lazy to do so. but i will eventually..since my hopes of an overseas education are as good as gone.

while searching for Lady Gaga's 'Just Dance', i found this video.

dancing is actually cool when ure good. aint something tht i would do, but definitely worth watching sometimes.

Chapter 69: TGIF? No!

2009-03-19T21:38:00.003+08:00

wah sian my block leave is almost over. i hope the posting results are not out yet becuz i wont go find out anw.

nth new this week. i submitted applications to nus and ntu even tho i wasnt 100% sure about my choices. making such decisions is so difficult. then i was so caught up with weighing pros and cons that all the plans abt getting a scholarship simply took backstage. id prefer to be a normal student, far from attention and just do without the additional pressure. of course, people would say it is inadvisable because having a lack of ambition blurs out your purpose in life..or sth along those lines.

if im offered a place of my no.1 choice. den i'l actually consider staying here seriously. my options dont seem so..infinite right now. going overseas may not be that great because so few offer the course i want. guess i shall just wait and see.

Chapter 68: Bias

2009-03-15T19:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wish my parents never knew my plans for the future. asking them for advice can be downright discouraging. once i bring a matter up they will never lay it to rest. i made a simple enquiry about computer engineering, my father told me stuff i didnt want to hear. my mom was clearly disappointed when she saw the brochures i brought home yesterday. she had no reservations about voicing ugly views on the type of people engineers were. from her tone i could tell she was referring to my father. tsk.

im upset they felt that way. dad is worried i might make the wrong choice becos he after all, is an engineer himself. he picked the right course of study 20 years back and now he feels fortunate to still have a job in the industry. mother wants me to be a doctor, but i dont.

anyway i'l most probably be applying for materials engring as my first choice. the rest i still have no idea. right now every other course seems to have a piercing disadvantage to it. so i guess my backup plan is still in the works.

Chapter 67: Project Passion

2009-03-13T21:37:00.003+08:00

windows media player lags. i dun tink anyone else's 1 does. maybe this means ive got a shitty comp?

i fell asleep playing this stupid ship simulation game today. the boat was so slow and the sea so plain that i dozed off simply from watching it try and reach some faraway destination. whats worse is that i woke up and found that the darn taxi boat drifted way off course..causing its passengers to be stranded in the big blue lolz.

ask myself. what do i wanna be when i grow up? ..blank. i could just add on to the scores of engineers, professionals, accountants, businessmen..or choose a not so sheltered and certain pathway. wacky ideas such as architecture and computer engring/science just pop into my head sometimes. its purely random so id think thrice before jumping into hasty decisions. still though, Mark the Architect sounds kinda cool i think.

i will try my bestest to get a place overseas. scholarship or not, i'l make sure i leave the clutches of the sg edu system for good. as detached and distanced from the moe our local Us claim to be, i do believe they all have the 'stone singapore' impression stuck on them. im not doubting the quality of local education, its just that i want to try something different. take a huge step out of my comfort zone to somewhere in London..or Melbourne..whichever, wherever.

making life's choices aint easy. but im giving myself a week to get set on a real plan. thats about all the time i have before im back in the dogdamned army anw.

Chapter 66: His Plans to Prosper Us

2009-03-06T22:44:00.005+08:00

results day. i felt less nervous than i was in a similar occasion 2 years ago. strange, given the fact that i had much less hope for satisfactory results this time. cutting to the chase, im happy with my grades. A for math, phy and chem..even gp stunningly. econs got B, and i should be grateful it was that good at all. credit goes to dear God, whose providence and daily blessings brought me to where i am today.. alive and well, despite my neglect and constant lack of faith in him. the past week ive been seeking comfort from the words of the bible,

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,

"plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

hard to believe he actually said that 2000 years ago? hahah it never fails to surprise people like me how the ol' holy book gives us inspiration in desperate times. meh, im sounding as tho alvls are a matter of life and death. theres still a long way to go boy, and till the day of my success comes i shall not rest. ok maybe abit.

while the one above has plans for me, i cant seem to figure out what they are. part of my job as a christian is to 'listen' to what hes trying to tell me. back here on earth, im thinking small picture, near future. i havent even decided on a university/course/country blah blah blah shit. 'how sia' is all i can say. im a lost sheep. meh

looks like i'l have to spend the block leave doing some serious thinking and find out what deadlines are relevant to me.

my last bookout from bmt was yesterday night. twas supposed to be today morning but some companies got punished so their bookout was delayed and mine brought fwrd by a whoopin' 12 hours hee hee. got home after midnight carrying a gigantic duffel bag in the rain but its ok. going home is always worth it.

i watched 'The Good, The Bad, The Weird' just now. i think my favourite genre of movies has to be action with adventure. cos the movies i love most are definitely of that sort. u might disagree, and the oscars as well, but i felt that slumdog was boring. no doubt the story was heartwarming, uniquely presented. unfortunately, underneath all that arty farty directing and cinematography, the plot comes as predictable as a typical routine day in the friggin army.

anyway TGTBTW was much more of a fun ride. korean filmakers can kick ass on quite a regular basis.
i would say all that trigger-happy scenes made me smile a fair bit during the show. the theme was clearly suited for my tastes..the fanboy, comic action type of stuff. i dun really know how to write a sypnopsis but i guess there isnt a need to. nobody i know would want to watch a korean slick flick anyway.

lolz tis is the first pic in a really long time eh. shouldnt forget to add more life n colors to my blog.

Chapter 65: Breaking Life Records

2009-02-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

i had the real ippt thing today. GOLD. but im not satisfied. i was given a second chance at pull ups..and even then i felt i didnt provide the standards required by the army. tho i attempted 10 pulls twice, the last one of each were really stupid bullshitty tries. my sgt gave it to me anyway.. probably becuz i looked kinda pitiful.

later that day i smashed another personal best for 2.4. everyone ran dam fast..maybe its becos we used the track. gets really boring circling the same path 6 times.. so we look to chasing and overtaking one another to distract ourselves. the first half of the platoon were almost clusterfuck tgt..difference from 1st to say.. 20th guy was only abt 30 seconds.

earlier this week i fell out of the 16km march.Fook. i felt dizzy near the end of the 4km rest point. till now i duno why..couldve been the rain and sweaty attire combo. the last time i fainted was i tink 4 years ago in church. i was actually standing for a long reading when i suddenly blacked out. anw i got pretty scared becos this time i knew it was coming. that nauseous feeling rose up from my stomach..then when i tried to stand my vision started to blur. i realised that if i continued to stand there wobbling around like a cock, i would just collapse in the mud as though my soul got sucked out in an instant. i stepped out to sound off to my platoon sgt but i couldnt even see him clearly. his voice was distant and i wasnt even sure if he heard me. the ic got to me in time thankfully. i was brought to the rover to have a sit....then i started to see again.phew. the safety officer told me to get on the tonner since they were already leaving the area. so i had no choice but to be the first noob to fall out out of the 4 companies that were there.

its a shame becos i know i could have completed it with everyone else and felt good about it. now i might have to re-march the whole thing some other time. pray it will not entail a confinement. boo.

oh yea my birthday was 'celebrated' in camp. initially intended to keep it a secret but it blew out in the most unlikely of ways by the most unlikely of persons. we had a talk that required us to fill in a form with our birthdates and the day's date. i didnt actually take note myself but the guy beside me did. hes known as 'Boss' cuz he likes to take charge of everything, very garang and always tries his best- far too often.. and a real blur sotong as well. anw my section recieved news of it and decided not to let me off in the customary taupok. i was crushed under the weight of 8 people the moment my butt touched the bed back at my bunk.zzz. then they invited the whole platoon to come in and sing a birthday song which was freakin embarrassing. i really dun like being in the centre of so much attention but i appreciated what my bunk mates did for me anw. it was heartfelt im sure.

Chapter 64: Counter- Terrorists Win

2009-02-21T10:46:00.003+08:00

i wonder if the next two years of blogging will revolve solely around the army..sounds bad. but what else can i talk about. spending 5 out of 7 days a week confined in an island cut off from home.. its easy to forget what civil life is about.

anw past week has been rather relaxed since most of the key events are over. we did urban ops, which is simply fighting in built-up areas. some peeps tot it was fun cuz it was kinda like playing a shooter game, and you could do anyting like kick open doors and move around like a freakin swat team. hee.

breaking news: i gained 5IVE kilos! woot. im officially 63 kg now. this is pretty big cuz i never broke the 60kg mark in my life. 50 plus kg is like featherweight class for guys man. even girls think im lying when i tell them my mass.. jealous maybe..i duno. on the outside i still look pretty skinny. but inside my muscles have become more solid..no longer hollow ahahaha. =.=

anw im going off to meet a stranger who wants to buy my john sloman's economics book. i recieved like 5 enquiries over the past 2 weeks..too bad i only have 1 for sale..and it shall go to the first bidder to be fair. i sense a sudden rush among econs students to salvage failing economics grades. couldnt save mine, but i wish the best for future candidates anyways.

Chapter 63: Lao Jiao

2009-02-14T22:26:00.004+08:00

it occurred to me tht im turning 19 this year. thats pretty freakin old! ok maybe i haven even started my prime but 19 doesnt sound like a boy anymore. when the results date is announced, my parents are gonna ask me wat my plans are. and becos i dun rly have an answer, theyre gona give me a lecture again. argh

i got to tinking about reservice while i was stoning in bed. our sit test was conducted by reservice men probably nearing their forties. most of them r clearly out of shape, some even with long or dyed hair. i couldnt help tinking tht in 20 years time id be lookin like one of these old geezers. the thought of donning a green uniform at the wrinkly old age of 40 eeks me out. even if i decided to work overseas at some point in my life, i wldnt be able to escape tht.

anw ive been hearing lotsa ghost stories around tekong lately. today i hrd about pegasus and the boy who can be seen in the toilet mirror. orion and ninja, each has had recruits jumping to their deaths..and only in the last 2 or 3 years mind you. not forgetting gryphon and many other coys..forums are flooded with prev consecutive batches confirming 'extraordinary' sightings. as for me, id rather whiskey coy stay as boring and storyless as possible.

theres a funny singh in my platoon. somehow hes always the last guy to fall in for anyting..morning exercise, first parade, meals etc. so everytime we report strength, we'l check if the singh is present then start counting. most of the time it works..so we'l say 'Singh here, all here!' lol..
hes qt the cock sucker, meaning he sucks up to the commanders and stuff. i rmb he was asked if he wanted to go to ocs by our pc, he said of course sir, to be like you..-.- zz dumbo

Chapter 62: Recruit

2009-02-14T11:11:00.003+08:00

my life as a recruit is almost over (passing out of boot camp 10th Mar). im having fun at bmt. cool bunk mates, commanders and all. soon that is gonna change. its very likely i will end up in command school.. and i hope it'l be just as great an experience. seems like ytd that i was dreading the confinement period at the start of enlistment. now that im more than halfway done..its hard to believe how fast time flies.

i nvr realised until today how smooth the floor of my home is. in camp, i always had to move about with some sort of footwear that i forgot how bareskin felt on the ground. outfield, sleeping with socks is a must cuz of mosquitoes and the cold. speaking of outfield, a platoon mate was bitten by a snake during the sit test while he was sleeping lol. so he only went thru day 1 of the test. (no need to retake!)

my mom is back from m'sia and she brought back angbaos from my relatives. im ashamed just thinking abt this. not only did i not go back to visit them (i tink its been 3 years), i tink its just disrespectful when they rmb me and in return i giv an impression that i dun care. this feud btwn my parents rly puts me in such an embarrassing position.

rumor has it that results will be out near the end of bmt. i find it v strange becos i recall last year..the male seniors came back to school with distinctly shaven heads. but by the time march comes, my hair would alr b long enough to cut back into normal shape. O's were released so many weeks ago, yet that batch started their exams only 2 weeks earlier than us.
ive totally forgotten to tink about my future education..and results are comin! how?how?how? after bmt i'l definitely have to take time off during the block holiday to consider such things.

Chapter 61: Wasted or Not

2009-02-07T18:30:00.002+08:00

being in camp cuts u well off from the outside world. and once ure out.. it feels weird just observing civilians and watching the news.. amazing how things become unfamiliar in such a short span of time.

desperate for entertainment ideas. im too lazy to step out of the house.. and i duno wad to do at home cept to watch dramas and play lame flash games. i have tons of unfinished games yet i dun see the need to go abt completing them.
perhaps the next few days i'l brainstorm ideas on how to spend my leisure time both incamp and out. even my mp3 songs are getting boring..and i myself have no time to discover new songs.. the only option available is to laze around in bed thinking about life.

i havent touched my ns allowance from last mth. while some of my frens are splurging on their girlfriends, feasting or clubbing..i keep thinking that this money should be btr spent. ive put my grand plans of buying a gming console on the sidelines for now. fact is, they are still so expensive and i have hardly any time to use them at all. (ps3 is still disgustingly ex..i wld have thought they might lower their prices over the xmas new year hols) i still do want to have one..its just not within my means to own 1 right now.

maybe all this lack of time to myself is temporary. its possible that when i get posted to a unit in a few months time i may even get to book out every day. shiok laa. for now i guess i'l save up for my driving lessons. once thts done then maybe i can look to taking up other courses or some shit lyk tht. martial arts?! language...??haha..id sure like to do something fun and value for time.

Chapter 60: Grave Digging

2009-02-06T21:26:00.005+08:00

im finally back. but gonna book in tmr again wtf. sit test starts on sun so we have to return to camp early. the schedule is pretty tight man..once the test is over, the only main events left are urban ops and obstacle course.

last week was field camp. started with an 8 click march with a load of a few kg..den right after that we had to set up the bashas (tent-like things) and dig the drainage on rock solid ground under the late noon sun. it was the most tiring thing ever. not forgetting my rifle got stunned (stolen) on the first night which was dam shitty. after learning my lesson, the rifle never left my side for the next 5 days. eat, sleep, dig, shit oso the rifle stays with me. eff man..

morning pt was like never before. exercise with the rifle, run oso must run with the stupid thing. tekan like fucck laa..cos we were late.. so kena punish like siao. crunches push up like 50 counts each sia........cheee ken.

basically we learn field crafts while we were there. the lessons were like the only time to relax a little. lucky not much night activity because we had to be tactical..that means maintaining light and noise discipline after dark.

the latrine is simply a few holes in the ground for u to shit in. after use, u have to cover it up of course.ive shit in the woods before..so its no biggie. some of my friends held up their crap for 6 whole days..pretty amazing.

the 4th day our camp was 'attacked' at friggin 5am in the morning. bloody kuku must pack up our basha and stuff chopchop den march off to new camp. there, we digged our shellscrapes..which are knee deep holes about the length of yr body. yeh just imagine grave digging. we spent the whole noon digging...and digging. fortunately for the so called dark clouds weather and my nice position under a gigantic palm tree..work was not overly life shortening. at night we slept inside..surprisingly quite comfy. i was assigned sentry duties from 1 to 3am but i was practically sleeping thru it anyways.

so thats about it i guess. i only changed twice over the 6 days. the only way to survive field camp is to put cleaniness and comfort at the back of yr shagged out brain.
right now i have to chill out den tmr start studying for sit test. learn some knots here and there and im ready to go.

ippt in army is some serious shit man. failure will result in u stayin back for remedial training..which happens when all yr frens have booked out lo. thank goodness i passed today's one..barely. some of my platoon mates have to book in tmr morning just to get that extra training..while i can make my way there much later at night tmr. phew.

Chapter 59: Whiskey Coy

2009-01-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

im home LOOOOOOOL. after 2 wks being stranded on an island..coming back to the mainland is incredibly refreshing.
happy to have booked out. but it wasnt without scares of postponement. we attended the live grenade assault course today so we spent the whole day throwing bombs. the thing with explosives is tht sometimes it cocks up and doesnt even pop. whenever tis happens..all throwing will cease until it actually blows up or 30 min hav past. throwing 'blinds' as they call it..would den delay everything else and so we were all hoping it wldnt happen. but it did anyway..twice.zz
anyway throwing the thing was pretty scary but at least i managed to do it without trembling hands.

my platoon skipped dinner today..rush here rush there hoping to book out earlier n shit. it was pointless to kancheong cos we still climbed onto the ferry at the alloted time. we were the last bunch to leave since the other coys booked out in the morning and even the night before.
on the bus back to the interchange.. everything we saw was like eye opening. we reacted to every traffic light..taxi..civilian on the street. we were like a bunch of apemen brought back into civilization hahaha.
somebody also shouted routine orders, something we have every night just before we sleep :" LIGHTS OUT ZERO ONE ZERO ZERO!... REVEILLE ONE THREE ZERO ZERO!" lol..

anw the 2 weeks confinement is over and thankfully it wasnt a hateful experience. ive got good bunk mates, not too strict commanders and that about makes a pleasant stay at camp. i learnt lots..handling the sar..field crafts..nades..n stuff. ive got my markmanship just like most of my platoon mates. like they say..its hard to be a bobo shooter with a freakin scope and laser thing on the gun.

lucky me got assigned guard duty on wed. why lucky? becos if my section hadnt done it earlier we could have struck it on friday night and not book out. section3 tio guard duty at such unfornate timing..suay as hell.

as for me, i guarded the ammo dump from wed night to thur morning. really dark and cold in the wee hours of the morning..maybe even haunted. if you would consider seeing things from the corner of my eyes as reliable and unlikely to be just a conjuration of my imagina then im afraid i did see unnatural 'things'.my shifts were at 8 to 10pm and 2 to 4 am so i made about 8 rounds altogether. in one and only one of those rounds i saw (again, from the corner of my tiny eyes)perculiar things. at the end of the 5th lap or so, me and cheuk yiu..bunk mate and a hong konger, took a break outside the guard house. it was then i spotted a white figure about 40m away moving down the side of the street.i didnt turn to face it at all.
10 minutes later..i turned into the path leading to the ammo dump. it was brightly lit unlike the previous stretch of roads. i would have liked to believe that i didnt see the same white thing sitting on one of the trees lined up by the side of the road.. but the scent of some flower wavering thru the air just when i neared that one tree was simply a spine tingling sensation. i knew better than to look up or alert my fellow guard about it..i just continued walking and chatting, keeping the fear hidden and pretending no shit happened.

i duno wad else to comment about. people become deprived living there but i guess i can cope with that. the food is okay generally.. but i feel kinda guilty whenever i got no time to finish up the food and have no choice but to dump it. i slept well everyday except the first one or two days..now i cant even be woken by an alarm clock that can be heard by the entire block. n yea the night sky is awesome. many stars and the almos frequent planes flying past can be seen when ure outside and thats cool.

good thing cny has arrived. i'l be booking in on tue..till then i'l just chill at home or accompany my parents out for shopping.woot

Chapter 58.2: Korea's Big Bang

2009-01-04T13:35:00.002+08:00

lately ive been rushing to watching as many episodes of the korean variety show 'we got married'. ive also chanced upon many cool korean songs.. tho i believe i'l nvr b able to fully comprehend what the lyrics mean without subs.

video and music made by MIXMAXX. i thought it was very professionally done.. to the point where i thought it was not three..but one song by itself.

Chapter 58: Forget The Resolutions

2009-01-02T20:28:00.004+08:00

i surprise myself every year in having to say this. but who really gives a duckwad about fufilling their resolutions? maybe i would...if i could only remember them in the first place.

the new year arrives and everyone starts talking about making resolutions. really now..had we even bothered to reflect if we achieved the ones that came before...? hahaha ok too serious. i dun care 'bout them either lololololol.

the remaining days before enlistment should be spent at home. i'l be sure to miss my bed..the homecooked food..zero enforcement of discipline..

these days ive been scanning through the wookiepedia. reading Path of Destruction left many '?'s over the names and technical terms the author uses. it mentions the Sith Code..which is of course something i shall not advertise here. on the other hand, the Jedi Code, somewhat similar yet directly opposite, is more appropiate in the the teachings of the light side.

There is no emotion, there is peace.
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
There is no passion, there is serenity.
There is no death, there is the Force.

—The Jedi Code (Based on the meditations of Odan-Urr)

the above is quoted from wookiepedia. do not look at it simply as a code of conduct established for the fun of sci fi. if u know anything about the Jedi, u would know that above all else they value patience. id like to elaborate more, but i cannot put it into words. allow me time to meditate on this and seek the right answers. until then, may the Force be with you.

Chapter 57: Old at 18

2008-12-31T19:56:00.003+08:00

today my father suggested that i revive my jogging routine which somehow ended back when the holidays began. ive not been well the last few days, right since i came back from the malaysia trip. it was a good getaway.. but i guess eating out and sleeping in an air conditioned room evryday makes an unpleasant combition overall.

so the world be damned, im down with a flu and a fever. 85% recovered (?) already. exercising is perhaps one of the better ways to beat the lethargy out of me. i would think it salvaged my A's to some extent. still, its probably not a good idea to run a 2.4 barely a day after recovering from aching bones and etc. less than half a km out of safe haven, some pain got to my knees. this one was new..so it adds to my list of faulty joints and body parts that is finding itself lengthening all too quickly.

im getting old ( 18 is like 1800..soo i'l be frickin 5000 when im 50 ) and my fitness days are pretty much over. ~_~ you know how its never good news when you hear your grandpa/ma come down with some illness..because ultimately that one time of sickery leads to a chain reaction of diseases to come. thats what my stomach ulcers has done to me. weakened my heart, health and everything....sigh................old.

last week i took my bike out for a spin. it's that cranky hunk of aluminium that i broke a few months back. sure enough the first time i took it out after its repairs..it failed.again.

truth be told i was reluctant to blog becos charlize theron would be there everytime i checked the tagboard. haha i guess that wont be the case anymore.

ay NS starts next week! for some reason its not exactly on the top of my mind right now. i got so much to do before i say goodbye to the slacker's life for the next year or so. Happy 2009. let tis be my last post of this very eventful year.

Chapter 56: Hancock is Not Messed Up.

2008-12-17T22:13:00.008+08:00

when it comes to movies, im very picky. if my jedi senses tell me its crap (it probably is), or the movie title is shit, i wont even consider watching it. whether or not im out with the whole class or just a group, i would never vote for a bs show. i believe im a more...passionate movie buff than most of my peers. one evidence that would suggest that is my huge collection of movies at home. ive asked others what vcds or dvds they hav that i can borrow..but surprisingly the response i get seems to be that they dont have many.

anw enough of that. i tink i missed out on several movies before the alvl period...movies i wanted to watch, like Hancock. good thing i watched it yesterday becos i tink it was a pretty good show. sean said he didnt want to watch because the main character's name is stupid. something about hanCOCK turns him off..
despite what some critics say, the movie did not fucking destroy itself in the second half. apparently the 'sudden' change from action comedy to sad 'n serious was just too much for their dam nuckleheads. somebody theorized that the production process was affected by the writers strike earlier this year...so it resulted in the movie rushing its ending right before the 90 min mark. stunningly short for a will smith movie. yes i tink will smith makes movies that spew Cool all over. I am Legend, Pursuit of Happiness were all appealing to me. Hancock had bits of funny, drama and romance. Certain people were not happy about the mushy gooey becos the movie was promoted as some sorta comedic thriller. wad kind of movie under the great blue sky of mother Earth does not have a love story? ffs even huo yuan jia's love interest in Fearless was made up to make complete the whoole thing. (actually im guessing)

the plot was 'messed up' according to some idiots. but in my eyes Hancock was an epic win. i like a movie with a story that leaves me thinking about it for some time. somehow it excites the imagination or challenges my ability to explain the ambiguous segments.

another thing that gave the Hancock a gold star was probably Charlize Theron. shes a real chick..and im just embarrassed that i never noticed her earlier given shes already been in the industry for a decade or more..

perhaps the sexiest woman alive.

Chapter 55: Thank Yooo Amazon!

2008-12-11T20:11:00.010+08:00

A package from the US arrived this afternoon..in it were the stuff i ordered from online shopping store Amazon. hyakhyakhyak Star Wars (sequel) Trilogy is finally in my hands..and i didnt have to fork out nuts. i also got the Twilight book..just to use up every single cent in the voucher. the dvd set plus book cost only 30 plus dollars..but once u include delivery..it amounts to exactly 50.00 dollars on the dot. phew.
yeh i know twilight can b borrowed from the library..but i tink its like forever on loan so i got my own copy anyways.

new songs on the imeem. jay chou's qing tian is still my favourite of his songs so far haha.

my desk before the alevels..much has changed since then. for one..the files are much thinner already.

sean misbehaving on the MRT lol

Chapter 54: Lazy Blogger Disease LBD

2008-12-10T20:36:00.006+08:00

i tink i caught it - the lazy blogger disease. blogging has become even more irregular for me than it already is..and i dun tink im the only one. xj and xw blog v rarely nowadays..reka's blog is dead. sean wun blog unless theres anyting worth complaining. angklung blog also pretty quiet without any upcoming performances for the ensem.

got no new pics to put up also..+.+ unhappening life.

but to be fair its not that im stoning at home. i traded a couple of ps games with yl and hav been busy playing them since. actually i went to school ytd to ball and jog for abit with some others. a few days ago i finished reading Slam Dunk..one of the best comic series ever, not counting its anime.. made me feel like playing some real bball.

there was an education fair for european universities last sat. i went with my dad to hear some of the talks and get some info. being from a non-EU country, the uni course fees are much higher for me. theres still ireland (not northern) tho..one place i will keep in mind. germany is the third most sought after country for tertiary studies after the US n UK..however, its likely i have to get german lessons if i choose to go.
my father aint rich..but he encourages me to go overseas as long as it is within his means to send me out of singapore. no doubt there r decent unis in sg..but i dun wan to graduate thinking that im just one of the average joes that NUS or NTU churns out every year. i aim to increase my employability one notch higher..and i believe this is possible if i acquire a more indepth global perspective by living, breathing and encountering a foreign land.

so far the stack of brochures which i hogged are lying in a canvas bag, untouched and unread. lol i guess i'l get down to reading them once im no longer busy....no idea when that will be. =p

Chapter 53: Not Yet Bored

2008-12-02T23:43:00.005+08:00

angklung chalet today. a countable number of people turned up..much to my amusement.
i went with the guys but we didnt exactly go there immediately.. jus trying to avoid the silly bonding games if any. so we hung out at white sands, ate lunch then went downtowneast to rent bikes. cycling was qt fun..cos we went all the way to changi village to get a nice sugarcane drink. on the way back we got caught in the freakin rain. i tink it was comparable to a typhoon. the rain was those kind where the water drops were so heavy it hurt when it hit u. plus we were cycling against the wind..making it harder to keep our balance. blinded, we struggled thru another 100 metres before we took shelter under a bus stop already occupied by other cyclists.zzz angklung chalet is destined to happen on rainy days.

anw nothing much after that. we sneaked in after drying up abit.. didnt even bother to pay the 1 dollar entrance. they booked two deluxe rooms which did not look anything like deluxe to me. its just as small as a normal hotel room..maybe even worse. so we had a room to ourselves cuz there werent any1 there really. play taidi and spent the time trying to make nabil lose so we could go home hahaha..

barbeque started late but we wanted to go home alr. so i deviced an escape plan..a devious work of art by yours truly. dun blame me..ilyas had to go home so we mite as well tagged along. so thats it..we went home. oh yea on the train..they actually called ilyas to say we havent paid the 8 bucks. =.= come on..i barely touched the sausages and like 2 or 3 marshmallows. im sure thats nt even gona cost a dollar.

im guessing pops has found my blog somehow. hes gd at such stuffs. he found my limkokwing university sex scandal pics in a folder hidden under my entire music file library. amazing lo.

i borrowed two books the other day. one of them of the star wars series. surprisingly alot of the books are missing from the shelves when i went searching for them. looks like im nt the oni one seeking to expand my knowledge of the star wars universe. the clone wars tv show is premiering this SAT wtf awesome. 9pm? tmd i forgot! i gotta finish watching the movie soon.. im oni halfway thru.

ytd was njc's prom. i still duno if i shud have went. on one hand i hrd the girls dressed up really well..and looked good. on the other..my class was not going and i doubt, for a person like me, there were many people to take pics with. saaaaad. regret? nah..

yes nowadays waking up is such a beautiful thing. without burdens, without any need to study, without work (cept housework)..sigh...holidays are good for the soul.

Chapter 52: A Reunion with Friends

2008-11-29T17:13:00.006+08:00

part 2 of chalet week ended ytd. it was gr8 to see old friends and classmates again. they havent changed much..still look same mostly. then again its only been 2 years..who knows what will happen in 10 yrs time. maybe those attached would hav gotten married alr..haha.

our chalet was in changi this time. a spacious bungalow close to the beach and the infamous changi food village. got a little lost while making my way there with bao, sean and jq..so we had to meet the others at the village instead. we rented bikes at the same place whr i had done so the 2 prev times id been there. of which the second time i got into trouble with the police for cycling recklessly on the road.

anw i brought my ps there to play. zongping provided the games..which i later bought for a mere 50 cents apiece. i feel bad for being such a cheapo..though he doesnt hav a ps anymo. i tried out the games jus now..spiderman3 spoil zz..guess i deserve it.

i chilled out with the guys by the beach resorts on the first night. some booze n tidbits was enuf to make a decent talk cock session. i dont rmb wad we talked about..trash i suppose. we stayed past midnight then went back to bathe and gamble. sean was drunk..or just 'high' as he claims. same thing imo.. but happy ppl make blackjack games pretty fun. n i still suck as a banker..

jq n zp were playing ultimate alliance. for 5 hrs since midnite they slogged throught the game, realising only later that they completed less than 15 percent of the game. hahaha..

we woke up at about 11 plus and went to buy lunch for the class. forgot what happen in the noon..prolly slacking by the beach, playing a lil game and prepping the barbeque. more ppl came in the evening..no i tink it was jus wangqian..n margaret. bbq was ok. i avoided cooking anything lah..jus lazy. after that went home..
initially the plan was to go home the next day. but so many were leaving and i coulnt think of anything to do for the night except sleep. so might as well go home and rest on the heaven bed.

my maid actually went home on wed. so i now hav to help out with the chores every morning before i start playing. pa is gona teach me to cook as well. bro is still having attitude problems..but at least he no longer bangs on the doors like a barbarian evrytime he comes home.

next few weeks i'l have more time to myself. i tink ive alr said what im gona do for the umpteenth time. so yah.. happy holidays peeps.

Chapter 52: Shairlay

2008-11-25T21:14:00.006+08:00

Came back from chalet jus this morning.. i reached home at 7am to be precise. my friends wanted to catch the first bus home so i followed.

day 1
i went there on my own cuz i had church n cldnt meet up with the class. arriving at tampines, i spent like half an hour trying to find a bus to downtown east. the stupid interchange was undergoing some construction works and there was a missing berth which so happened to be the one im looking for. after finding the makeshift berth, i realised Bus 3 was strangely nt operating anymore. then i had to go back to the bus directory, study the ridiculous map of the neighbourhood and find an alternative bus to the chalet.

we didnt do much.. cept prepping for the bbq and playing card games in the tiny room. it rained for abit but stopped just in time for us to start dinner before it gt too dark. mr teo and mr tan came, treated us some drinks. zp the cook, did a gr8 job imo. im usually cautious with the chicken wings because it always turns out half cooked, but his was perfect thankgoodness.

later that night we gamed at the arcade and bowled for awhile. didnt really sleep after that cuz there was no space really. so i watched 'the unseeables' with some peeps, kind of like the thai version of 'the others'.

day 2
macdonalds breakfast sucks ass. half of us had a weird stomachache hours later. they suspected it was the coffee. personally i tink coffee is crap because it tastes of burnt stuff. plus its nt v healthy either.

i kicked my big toe nail..again. the other dead half broke off so now im technically left with three quarts of a nail on my big toe. but once i clipped it off i was back in business, playing bball at the court jus outside ehub.

we cycled for a couple of hours in the noon. the sky threatened to fall on us but luckily it was just bullshitting. didnt rain at all during the day so it was gr8. many had left by evening so it was down to 7 survivors. i actually tink chalets bring physical suffering..nt exactly torturous pain, more like the kind u experience in school camps and stuff.

nighttime came and the few of us laxed in the chalet, which became many times more homely after we cleaned up evrytin by hand. i tink the girls washed the bedsheets even. so anw we rented another 2 movies. but i only made it thru national treasure 2. (quite ok movie..interesting enuf to keep my dead tired eyes open) i dozed off after less than 10 minutes of painted skin. boring as hell. i heard the none of my frens lasted the whole thing.

day 3
home sweet home. checking out at 5am in the morning is such a strange thing to do. but i guess they were all were eager to return home..so was I.

theres another chalet coming up this thrusday. i tink i'l bring my ps and ask zongping bring some old games. hrd he sold his ps..but maybe he still has games which i could use. its getting lame at home..i might have to take a trip down to the library to get some books.

Chapter 51: Life's Back to Normal

2008-11-22T19:48:00.003+08:00

i dun tink im ever going to start commenting on the A's..becos wadever i tink of seems to only be the areas which i messed up. i had tot it wld be good to write abt it ..so that future candidates who stumble upon this post might have some idea how it all went about. but to hell with that..i dun want to tink of it again until results day.

its nt strange that school is getting tougher over the years anw. pri sch students are studying more subjects, and using calculators for math. sec sch students have new subs. and us..the year-round test failures says it all.

todays newspaper cited an article from the New York Times saying that people who watch TV are unhappy people. haha i duno about that..but i watch tv on the net. i tink that counts =_=

tommorrow im going for JC class chalet. abt 16 or 17 ppl are turning up. i tink its gona b sian cos no1 really planned anything to do except the BBQ. the girls forbid the guyys from bringing their ps and wiis..like wad the Sian. oh yea i played wii on tue at zp's place..i tink its nt a bad console in terms of fun-ness. really PG-stuff-only. i like their wii sports and some other party games.. but i tink maybe not so fun when playing on your own.

just restarted some retro games on the comp n ps. gta san andreas, final fantasy 4,8. ff especially brings back memories. when i was a kid those games were just that.-games. now, playing them again feels somewhat different. stuff i nvr understood b4 have become clearer and even enlightening at times. like new u know.

ok thats just pathetic. if i had a freakin ps3 i would have dumped my ps2 by now.

anw life's great. im nt fond of going out too often, cuz it usually means spending alot of money.
so u see.. if i had more money, i wldnt be complaining about going out so much. as of now..i still tink money is everything. maybe 10 years down the road..i'l be crazy and say money is nothing. another 20 years perhaps that would change again. wiser Mark will learn that Money is always something.

Chapter 50: Return of the Jedi

2008-11-18T20:13:00.002+08:00

WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

what can i say, i made it thru 12 blasted years of formal school education in one piece. even my parents texted to say they r proud of me. muahahaha.i jus hope my results are good enuf to make them n myself satisfied.

theres so much to say about the A's really. like how Cambridge turned gay 2 years ago. like how students complain that the papers are simply undoable. i dun tink it is..(tho i screwed up still). Rather, the examiners just wanted to see a more creative side of singaporean students. Hence the creative questions. but thats for the another post.

the days coming up to the actual start of the exams were pretty interesting. my father got us a couple of cable tv channels..mainly the documentary, chinese entertainment and lifestyle stuffs. at first it was cool to have a little something extra to watch, but now i tink half of the programmes shown are just junk. we didnt get the prime channels like the movies one n sports..but its ok. i wun get much chance to watch any telly nxt yr anw.

i also visited the family/juvenile court to witness what went on in a court proceeding. i must say lawyers have a stupid job. from morning to evening their butts are planted in the court room because..i duno?..its their job to listen to every shitty case even if they are not involved in them. my parents were there for their divorce but their turn only took 10 minutes. we spent more time waiting than presenting the case to the judge. i was surprised how many peeps were there. punks, working men n women, babies, and even folk old enuf to be my great grandparents. in the waiting room you could tell estranged husbands n wives because they never sat tgt..but just glared at one another across the room. most people were there for money issues, few concerned crimes committed by teens n such. oh well.. thats a taste of singapore's social problems for u.

i listed down certain things i planned to do..movies i intend to watch and now i can carry them out accordingly. hai..its good to be free.

Chapter 49: May the Force be with You

2008-10-27T17:32:00.004+08:00

here comes the last push/stretch/chance/battle or whatever yall call it. final week of preparations calls for more discipline and mental readiness up to the actual day. so heres my last post before i abandon blogger until the 18th. i shall post an aftermath report after everything is over.BYEZ

Good luck to all taking the A's.

and May the Force be with You.

Chapter 48: Uh-Oh

2008-10-25T16:11:00.002+08:00

enlistment! 7th Jan! theres goes my driving lessons, my playstation and my job.=.=
well its ok..theres a lesser likelyhood that i'l miss the uni start term in 2011.

i tink no cny 2009 for me too..family will be in malaysia so unless i take leave i can't go.blehz.

alamak..next year go school take results with a botak head.

Chapter 47.1: I love this Shet

2008-10-21T08:28:00.002+08:00

gawd im drooling. how i wish i could be part of the making process..zz. no chance while im here..

Chapter 47: T.T

2008-10-18T10:23:00.001+08:00

so i just learnt that multicores dont really help in gaming..at least at the current stage of technology. sigh

this has once again brought me back to getting a gaming console. still cant decide between an xbox and a ps3 but right now im just more towards Sony's side. Metal Gear doesnt look like its ever gona appear on the xbox. no doubt the box has significantly improved on its game quality and variety since it appeared on the market, but sometimes i just dont like the look of its controller.

microsoft comes up with new xboxes too often..making its older models obselete more quickly. nabil had an xbox..but it turned into a scrapheap when xbox 360 came out..followed by xbox 360 'live'..and rumors say an xbox 2 is comin. the ps3 is not without its cons tho. its slightly more expensive and looks really shock-vulnerable..its pretty big too. and its losing out in terms of 'fresh gaming' to competitors like wii and the box.

most of xboxes games r also supported on pc platform..unlike sony who are more brand specific..like how Apple used to be. rmb the days when ipods stole (and converted) mp3 files from yr comp so that windows media couldnt play them? yea thats what sony is still doing.

both are good. but i only have money for one. plan after A's is to get a job, sign up for driving and save up for a new game console. yup i tink im enlisting late..April prolly.

Chapter 46: Tech Noob

2008-10-12T00:51:00.003+08:00

zomgwtfbbq. after using the desktop for more than a year.. i only recently discovered that its a dual core. n there i was sulking over another comp that i thought was a millennium behind everyone else's. it appears the system info screen is terribly decieving for its utter briefness. now i know that a more comprehensive list of comp specifics should be referred from the device manager.noob siaz
dualcores are by no means new technology..but here at home, it feels like the time when televisions first made its way into American households. the implications? a wider range of pc games!- twice the fun, twice the awesomeness. woooo hoo gone are the days when i had to search for 'Top 10 games of 2008 minus 5 years" to play hahaha .. dam..i sound like a noob again.zz

Chapter 45: How can a God not exist

2008-10-09T21:14:00.003+08:00

njc liberated its senior prisoners on wednesday. it didnt feel like the last day of school at all. why? because i still attended lessons proper. none of the tutors said much about farewell. n i went home to mug like any other cold, rainy day since the prelims.
maybe it'll be a few weeks from now b4 realise that i won't have official lessons for the next 2 years.. that i wont see nice, pleasant teachers anymore.

i feel fortunate to have a religion. i don't understand why some people say it's a waste of 'spiritual/emotional' capacity. throw me all the antireligion facts u want, im not convinced there is no God. its pointless to prove His existence really.. it simply beats the whole idea of faith. for someone who promises to crush our puny, insignificant fears and to love no matter who,what,whatever you are, i'd rather be on his side than go arnd telling people its all bullshit.

in ways indescribable, i have felt his presense just as how i know evil lurks in the dark corners of my home.

when i was a kid. my maid was tailed right up to the doorstep by a stalker claiming to be a police. had my dad not been at home on that working day (for reasons unknown) that asshole could have murdered me and my bro and stole everything at home. my father chased him away. sent him running like a scared lil pussyboy. coincidence?

while my bro crashed into a porcelain vase and was bleeding half to death on the floor of the living room, was it a coincidence i was at home during the holidays instead of killing time roaming the streets of orchard? because of that injury, he couldnt do anyting else but study in bed. just as well his olevels was rescued thanks to that.

and while my parents was on the verge of divorcing, just weeks before the termination of their marriage status. was it a stroke of luck that my mom lost her job and her business in china messed up big time? sure it was shitty situation for her but thats how God does things- in ways that may not be nice but is dam well effective. the divorce was cancelled..or at least postponed for the time being.

coincidences? you tell me.

let nothing trouble you.
let nothing frighten you.
everything passes.
God never changes.
Patience obtains all.
Whoever has God
wants for nothing;
for God alone is enough.

-Saint Teresa of Avila

have no fear, though alevels is near. just do your best and all will be well. cheers! :)

Chapter 44: First Encounter

2008-09-28T23:58:00.005+08:00

i know i said i won't blog till like the end of A's but i couldnt help it.

this fool flew into my bedroom window while i was doin my work. dumass scared the livin' kidneystones out of me. first of all, ive never seen a flying cockroach. secondly, its 2nd or 3rd on the hitlist of annoying pests/beasts.

to all flying/land roaches and all cockroach wannabes. dun u ever dare have the slightest, sickest thought of tainting the sacred land that is my room. or u'l end up like that dude over there.

prelims results are more or less there. rubbish crap. but the big show has yet to arrive so i can't afford to fail yet.

just a funny pic b4 i forget. mailboxes, it seems, have been reduced to no more than an aluminium box sitting on a buncha sticks. haiz..the cheaponess of hdb everywhr we go..

Chapter 43: Coming Back to Earth

2008-09-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

school started proper today. reallly proper. i was slapped with new math assignments, an essay paper and a gp compre test. prelim results are still unknown..but so far jus bad news. i almos failed my chem mcq and im quite upset abt tht. most of the wrongs are because i read the ques too dam fast..missed out certain things and lost the mark. (f)ARGH

im going for tht darn mock test in sch this thurs. perhaps under less pressure i work with a clearer mind.

no mood to play liao. but dun wan to study either.yuck

Chapter 42: Once in Five Years

2008-09-11T10:14:00.004+08:00

today i had to wake up at freakin 5 in the morning to go to the malaysian high commission to renew my passport. i reached there at 6am and there were alr ppl in line..thankfully not many. service conditions have changed a great deal since i went there 10 years ago. security guards are no longer the enemy and the staff can at least speak some english..not like last time yaya papaya refuse to speak anything besides bahasa melayu. still..some things dun change, like how consul ppl are always unpleasantly no-nonsense. i think they must really dislike their jobs to be so crabby all the time.
haiz can't help it lah. thats how authority behaves wherever u are.

ate at a bukit merah hawker centre for breakfast. suppose to have some famous stalls..and it did. food was not bad actually.

my father started his life lessons in the car as usual. he talks about keeping malaysian citizenship until i decide to settle down..maybe in sg maybe not. if i find i foreign wife btr stil..can migrate overseas so my kids wun suffer here. he emphasized once again to find someone who understands our culture..thus indirectly implying that ang moh zha bor are strictly a no-no. blah blah blah..

pa: in your NS or even uni, you can have friends..but not Girlfriends, understand?

me: ...

pa: once u get stuck with a girl, she becomes your pre-occupation. a bloody day and night distraction.

me: ...

pa: u kena only ah..yr studies confirm kabut i tell u.

me: ( what the hell is kaboot? sounds like 'game over') ... orh.

on a random note. he doesnt like feminists. i tink its partly because my mom is so career/independant minded that it cost them their marriage. singapore has not enough babies because of such women..(not my mum. she alr had me n my bro). pm lee makes the little dragon jokes in his rally. ppl laugh. but when the time comes..see whos gona be amused when there arent enough guys around to defend the country. enlist women arh? ang moh larng? maybe even the friendly neighbourhood bangladeshi worker.

aiya later i need to go back to collect the passport zz.

Chapter 41: The Korean Wave

2008-09-05T23:16:00.003+08:00

ok im now blogging on my bro's laptop under heavy secrecy. some of the security measures put in place include 1) checking for keylogger programmes, 2) disabling internet history autosave and 3) clearing all internet caches when im done.

holidays was not bad to be honest. i actually think it was better than june hols tho it was only 1 week. i watched alot of youtube, revived my ogame account and played a fair amt of games. recently i became addicted to this korean reality show called 'we got married'. the show fixes celebrity couples together and they have to act like husband and wife. it was so realistic that i actually tot they were real life married couples when i first stumbled upon one of the videos. some of dem who never ever met each other before started to have feelings for one another..which is quite interesting considering that they started of without expecting that to happen. but the most entertaining stuff are in the the dialogue lol..even reading e subtitles can make me laugh. thru the show, ive also learnt to like some korean songs. next time i'l put 1 up on imeem.

maybe i should consider staying in korea for some time..say in the future. i have this idea in my head that i would really enjoy working on robotics in a country like Japan..which isnt very distant from its next door neighbour. their languages are like cousins...meaning..a korean would learn japanese as a second language just like how we learn english then chinese as mother tongue. since i dun forsee my futures in china..i tink korea or japan would b a nice place to live in. hopefully by then, sword wielding street slashers will no longer b such a terror.

oh i almos forgot. the korean diet is rly scary. kimchi -everyday. different types of preserved veggies but stil kimchi. i guess i could acquire a taste for its cold sourness, only took me a few days to get a taste for it at obk..until i got the horrible stomach flu. the rest of the camp saw me avoiding bibimbab and other korean food as far as i could.

aah. i missed the mountain climb. zz i wun forget the promise i made to myself.

Chapter 40: The Mes of the Past

2008-09-02T01:02:00.009+08:00

My grandfather in the 1950s. good looking chap.

I just entered uni.

Dashing law graduate.

Aah..nice look. kinda familiar.

young and aspiring.

wasn't really fond of the long matted hair.

i liked the afro tho. springy

no i wasn't a Hippie.. almost. Abba was fashion then.

tried an 80s michael jackson. cocked up miserably.

yet another familiar hairdo.

NJ polo tee 10 years ago. stil the same as ever.

that ain't me. its my fat cousin.

i saw a buncha funny pics on sean's blog and decided to create some of my own. heehee

Chapter 39: A Very Short Break

2008-08-30T19:34:00.003+08:00

the holidays have begun..and it will end soon enough. theres stil e physics n chem papers after the hols are over. but evryone felt it was right to take a break from study after the math paper last thurs..i did too. we had a class outing to plaza sing to have have lunch n look for some teachers' day presents. it wasnt easy looking for sth they might like.. we nvr realised tht our teachers were so 'unknown' to us. . we bought mr tan the "men are frm mars, women frm venus" book. mr tiew got the obama book..i forgot the title..it wasnt audacity of hope..but power something one. all our teachers got some special card thing that was rly a photoframe with some thank you wishes here n there.
i couldnt stay till dinner..some of dem wanted to catch wall.e ..which didnt interest me.

teachers day wasnt bad. the be-yourself show was cool..nice joker impersonation, darth maul/ jedi costumes etc. the skits n performances in general were qt funny. i ponned the celebrations last year..for some reason ive long forgetten. but like last year..i didnt go back to my old schools. pri sch will b filled with sec sch ppl..and sec sch surely crowded with with e jc1 n new poly first years. its always like tht..eagerness to go back within a year of leaving the school. eventually theres no longer such a need when the teachers dun rly rmb u anymore.

ive been slacking the past few days..playing alot, especially since i gained access to my bro's CSCZ game. tho ive finally bought the batman begins dvd, ive havent taken the time to sit down and watch it. i tink i'l wait awhile more..since the movie is still qt fresh in my head.

the new song on my imeem is called The Man Who Can't Be Moved, performed by The Script. i wanted to put up Hero/Heroine..but i becos i didnt alr have the song..i figured i would have it played whenever i visit my blog. interesting chorus..great tune also.

Chapter 38.3: I love Money but not the Economy

2008-08-26T19:04:00.004+08:00

maths test sucked..wasted alot of marks cos i din have time to do. physics sucked more becos i was scammed into tinking it was easier than CT. i realised i got owned after thinking thru the ques while at home.

economics must be the new entry on the shit list of shitty subjects.
i tink the mkt structure notes is dam ridiculous. 40 pages..mostly stuff i can't make head or tail of. i can read 60 pages of Fields and still understand every bit of it. in other words, we got noob econs notes.

but i like money leh. tho i dun tink im gona study econs in the future..i tink im gona play stocks n shares at least. does tht mean i mus like econs to have some money sense?

Chapter 38.2: Heart Disease, Gastric, Stress, Depression?

2008-08-21T10:47:00.005+08:00

yesterday was a terrible ordeal. im nt talking abt the gp exam..rather, i somehow got sick. after lunch i rested for abit before i started study. but my chest began pounding at an abnormal rate..it was irritating and i cld nt concentrate. i tot i was suffering some sorta nervous tension out of the miserable gp paper..like becoming scared of the prelims or sth. so i took frequent breaks btwn reading BOP and exchangerates..watching TV and resting on the bed..but even then the pounding didnt stop.
i spent the whole afternn jus reading the 2 chapters..obviously ineffective and a waste of time.

i thought, 'ok, maybe i'l have btr luck tonight..' so i restarted revision and immediately the pounding came back after it eased abit over dinner. i started to get worried..so i checked the internet for symptoms of stress, depression and even coronary heart disease. yup, while everyone else was studying..i was busy surfing the net for some diagnosis. none of them rly related to me..altho some guy on youtube described certain signs which related to stress..such as heart beating slightly fast..and a lil clammy hands. halfway thru the vid..my chest started beating v fast and i tot "shit..heart attack"..i layed down on the bed and started taking deep breaths..like i was gonna suffocate from heart seizure any moment. but no..nth happen. wtf was wrong with me?

i felt my abdomen to double check the area of fast beating. strangely..it was the stomach area tht was sort of..pumping..like a heart. den i realised it must be some sort of stomach problem. tried to vomit a few times later tht night..but cldnt do so. den i started thinking abt the next day's tests..n wondered if i cld make it. all day long i only managed 3 chapters of econs which werent even particularly impt..

my reckless side told me..jus go and whack the paper. fail oso nvm. but the more sensible me said i should rest tmr and take the test another day. on one hand i wanted to get it over and done with... the prospect of coming back on a free day(s) jus to take a paper is qt gross.

this morning i felt btr. but i cldnt make it to sch. i practised sitting on a chair in front of my desk..but i still felt the gurgling movements in my abdomen. can't do a paper in peace if i have to worry abt puking every now n then..
i visited the polyclinic anw..and it was a lesson for me nvr to go there again. as a pr, im charged almos the same consultation fees as a private gp..to top it off..the clinic was bloody far and queues were long at both reception n pharmacy area. the oni gd thing is tht the medicine wasnt priced too high..but then again i dun rly need it most of the time.

i made my way home w/o the bloody key and with nobody home. waited abt half an hour for maid to come back. another lesson: get used to bringing yr keys out. anw i decided to forego all studying today..n watch olympics amap.

Chapter 38.1: A Bad Start to the Campaign

2008-08-20T12:56:00.003+08:00

GP screwed-up-beyond-all-recognition. major demoralizer..especially at the start of the exam. i tink sp set the compre..apparently all her classes were prepared for such a topic. ive got to get a habit of focusing on the papers yet to come..not whine about the papers past. sigh. gp sux ass

Chapter 38: Preliminary

2008-08-17T00:22:00.007+08:00

i ended a year's commitment to sfsc's volunteer tutor programme yesterday. im partly glad that i no longer need to have my entire afternoons spent travelling halfway across e island and back again..yet i also noe i will miss the kiddo. i admit i wasnt a particularly excellent tutor in terms of encouraging him to learn.. but at least i think he enjoyed the tuition sessions with me.

so we said farewell. i gave him a pokemon comic book..which i bought. so im not always stingy k.
n it was weird searching for a gift becos i felt like a grownup nub who didnt have any idea wad kids found 'happening' these days. but with some simple jedi trickery..i was able to pick out something that i believe he v much liked.

wish him well for his studies.

apart from studying everyday for the past week.. life has been rather mundane lately. watching olympics was quite relieving.. tho i only watch the highlights of the day's events at night..zz. i have every reason to believe my mum is there right now..soaking in the atmosphere of the Games. wish I was there.. cos being stuck at home for days on end does make people mad it seems.
i see blogs temporarily dying around me..so i too didnt have much urge to write. once though..i felt like listing down down a couple of new study plans and all e topics i havent studied. then i got bored thinking of them..and hence ended my draft.

a new fastest man has emerged on the planet. Usain Bolt clocked 9.68s, new WR in the 100m men's sprint a few hours ago. geez he didnt even give it his best...slacking off at the last 10 metres. Powell was a distant 5th position..Tyson Gay didnt even make the finals. it's great to b an athelete..esp when ure the best in the arena. one hundredth of a second can make the difference btwn u and a hell lot of cash rewards back home. like an instant millionaire.

i discovered a 'new' species of house lizards last week. it had huge scale like armour on it...not tht i was inspecting it under a microscope...but the patterns on its skin were soo ___ that it made it one of the grossest things ive ever seen. all the more a reason to squish it and show no mercy.

its only a baby liz..but so what?? tht won't spare it from getting smacked by an old Time Magazine with Shinzo Abe's face on it.
if u zoom in..u can probably see the scaly stuff..on its tail too! sick.

i think blogging isnt good for the mind..esp when ure all getting prepped up for the exam. u gotta think like a computer and familiarise yr brain with a motherload of technical jargons and alien concepts.
i reely doubt that ridiculous sentence fillers like 'lol', 'sian' or 'zz' and not to mention, the ever famous '...' is gg to do Any good for my essays.

Chapter 37: Rich and Selfish

2008-08-06T23:46:00.007+08:00

yay..its the end of the school week. study can b done at home for the next 4 days..(actually 5...for tis one time) and i can catch up on the hw.

quite recently my 'crankiness' has revealed itself to the ppl ive chatted with online. im beginning to doubt if its a gd thing..esp towards my classmates.. who finally tot i was gona b a normal person after all. unfortunately.. im still the way i m in school..reserved..limited social circle bla bla bla. so i sensed the disappointment in some of dem when they suddenly got more chatty arnd me in sch but all i had to say were few words in response which were btr off back in my mouth. in the end, all ive succeeded in doing is to amplify people's perceptions of me as a weirdo freak. yes i shud stop being who im not..that means cutting down on crappy msn convos and rebuilding my anti-social rep. id rather remain weird..than b recognised as a super weird e.t. or sth.....if u get my drift.

finally bought transformers dvd..only a chinese parallel import tho. 11 dollars sia...almos as good as a pirated one. the picture quality was acceptable..but sound wise..hmm. the supposedly 'loud' sound effects were somewhat diffused?..softy soft...no substance. at least i watched it in the cinema previously..definitely more fun.

my internet is screwing up..i suspect its some virus running arnd in the pc..cos my bro's wireless is nt having any such problems. gt trouble getting into msn nowadays
but anw..i had a little..uh worrying realisation.. while i was logged on to ogame tonite.
tis new, lower ranked guy in my alliance had asked me if i had any free resources lying arnd that i could offer him at no cost. i lied and i said no..i mean..i was always saving up to build other stuff so ..yea. these resources are generated by the second..which means everything going on in the game happens in real time. he told me he jus wanted res to build some of his own stuff...but i jus gave him a whole load of bs abt how its illegal to send res without trading sth in return etc...but he knew the rules btr. still..even after correcting me..i gave him a lecture abt how he shudnt be gg arnd asking for free res from other players. of course i said it nicely...in a v advisory sort of way..giving him tips on being self-sufficient n stuff.

but what was wrong there?
i was rich (still am.. in the game i mean)..n i cld sure send over a chunk of my own res w/o rly suffering a loss. so whhy didnt i do it? Selfish? possibly. i tried to convince myself that i shudnt b encouraging his beggar-ly ways..or support his free loading habits. but i duno if its fair..he is after all..still new and may not know the fastest ways to earn resources.
for a short while dere...i felt dis unwillingness to share..like as tho i had a slight understanding as to why rich people dun simply shower 100 dollar bills over the needy.
i aspire to b rich, wealthy..but if this is the kind of attitude im gona have..den im afraid of growing up to become another of those ugly, moneyfull people.

Chapter 36: And the Crankiness Starts to Show

2008-08-02T22:49:00.004+08:00

My brain is dying. please feel sad for it. i spent the whole morning and afternn doing vectors n hypothesis. was soo dam slow cos of the comp (yes its always the computer's fault) ..and nt to mention tht it became as hot as hell when the midday Sun decided to fry me up. so anw i went Out arnd 4.30 to get a hair cut..was too lazy to walk to the barber's ..abt two bus stops away.. so/but i took the bus. while waiting for the ride..i actually took some time off to appreciate the greeny trees and whitey clouds..soothed my eyes a little.

I got home and started on electrochemistry..finishing only at abt 11..sian..nvr do so much homework in one day before.

Mum has left for the month..flown to China to look for a job i suppose. shes been really restless at home the past few months as a result of nt having a job. hm..im guessing she gt retrenched because her company, Sony, isnt doing so well for qt some time now. i rmb they alr issued a profit warning a couple of weeks ago. what they shud rly do.. is lower the price of the playstation3 so that desperate people like me can buy it sooner.

..for the month ahead. dinner will probably b pizzas and eating out wherever we can. at home, my dad will supervise the cookin and thats also a good thing. rly respect him for healthy, reduced salt cooking that still tastes awesome.

tmr....or rather later today i'l b gg to town to get something for yuanliang's bdae.. and also accompany sean to get his ultraman toys..again. anw the girls decided to push the task to me cuz thing2 and bernice also celebrating their big day in the coming week..What this ultimately means is that class fund is gona blow another gaping hole in my flimsy pockets. im predicting roughly...a 20+ bucks contribution frm each person...even after sharing the cost of cakes n presents among the class of 20... rly is it worth it? well for me at least...i feel that doin w/o the gifts and all will save money and make ppl more happy.

kay..so problem is i duno what to get. lotsa stuff got superstition behind it...plus i dunno him well enuf to guess wad he'd like to have. reading up on superstitions can also b pretty creepy especially when ure a part-time believer and ure alone in the living room at 1 bloody am in the morning.
...tsk...hmm..zz..aiya the present thing later then say la.

Chapter 35: A Silent Guardian, a Watchful Protector, a Dark Knight

2008-07-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

wasae (nice word coined by muthu).. my internet got some serious problem. i spammed xw's tagboard like 3 times already but the comment keep disappearing when i return to the page. perhaps her blog is gaining some form of self-awareness and decided to kick out w/e tags that wasnt replying her question on the apprentice issue.

I waited 3 greatgrandpa snail years for the sequel to the Batman Begins movie..and booyyy was the wait worth every cent. budden i wun go overboard, promoting the show to evryone arnd me...otherwise people might say i "overrated" it..and shame on me shud i ever do unjustice to the movie. in short anw, heath ledger's final act was a true work of art and the film was a fair and honorable tribute to his name. the Dark Knight not only packed more suspense, more techie gimmicks.. but also came with a deeper plot thanks to the likes of the Joker and Harvey Dent. its a dark movie..yet really meaningful if u ever sat down n reflected upon it. at the end of it, i couldnt help but feel a greater sense of respect towards Batman, possibly the most realistic comic hero ever created. Christopher Nolan directs some really interesting movies prior to his claim to fame in the batman franchise. I've watched Momento, about this amnesiac who needs to rmb evryting evryday by reading his tons of post-it notes..haha.Christian Bale, um Nolan's apparent muse, stars in this flick..and i tink hes not bad an actor himself.

that reminds me...its time to get a copy of Batman Begins since the 2nd movie is out. e dvd should be cheaper by now. i always tell myself to get a collection of these great movies on cd so i can preserve them for the future. but until now i havent even bought Transformers ..(forever on the 'to-buy' list)

Chapter 34: 94 Days

2008-07-25T20:07:00.008+08:00

the past week was pretty hectic..i had to complete my testimonial, prepare for the math test and try to keep up with the science assignments. din rly feel like blogging.. was feeling lazy anyway. im glad the week is over..n i guess i wun b doin any hw today since ive been doin a lil here and dere for the last few days. zz had wanted to do up the caal thingy today tho.

sth struck me one day while i was browsing thru this Courts catalog. 50 percent off plasma tvs and furniture sets. it baffled me how stores can b tht willing to shave prices off their products soo drastically....den i realised tht during all those times they werent havin a megasale, they were prolly scamming every one of its patrons. imagine the superprofits they hav been earning all these while.. 5000 original price can cut until 2000. wtfhs. Sure... ppl save several grand on wadever shit dey buy frm u.. but i suppose they nvr rly suspected that yall had been ripping their pockets wide open hav they?
n tis $1 downpayment scheme of theirs..along with their so called credit cards tht can amt to 8x your salary are simply promoting 1 of the biggest evils in the world. credit payment. stupid cards encourage u to spend with money u dun bloody have, making u pay for things u cant freakin afford. n when u pull off a debt, they wun even tink twice abt dunking u into dip shit.
no bias meant here...i mean, almos every firm is guilty of such devious price setting anw.

disclaimer- my economy not beli zai k. so i cld b wrong lol.

im currently reading 'animal farm' by george orwell. its embarrassing when so many ppl talk abt it n im the only one who cant make head or tail of what they r discussing. apparently its a literature text used by many schools here..but only god knows why my sch chose "the eng teacher"..ducking load of bullship. some ppl didnt even read the whole dam book and scored higher than me. so lame.

dun judge a book by its cover. these 'nice' images i gt off the net is likely to b a poor reflection of its content.

on the bright side..my new timetable is qt ok. all days go home by 3pm. budden fri alr gt econs lecture at noon and thurs i tink gt phy consolidation. no brain...make us waste 2 hrs to and fro jus to attend school for 50 minutes. helllooooo...marginal private/social cost is greater than marginal personal/social benefit (MSC> MSB!!!!!!) we waste even more time with the super new n improved time-saving timetable. brilliant.
wed, chem cher has kindly warned us to endure lesson overshots as chem tut is the last period of the day.haiz. on 2nd tot... theres nt much of a bright side after all.

94 days to alevel econs paper according to mr tiew. theres still time to buck up, provided u have the right attitude.

Chapter 33: For The Record, Crap = Shit

2008-07-16T22:02:00.006+08:00

every sun evening, i go to church and thank God for all the good things tht happened to me over the past week. no doubt i complain almos everyday, abt the bs tht is skul life..but when its time for some sirius reflection.. i realise there r many lil' stuff tht i wld have been rly thankful for.

for one, i went to sch tis morning w/o the usual "shit-i gotta-take-a-crap-in-school" feeling whilst im on the bus. y? maybe its becos tis morning my maid didnt prep my breakfast..i ate ba zhang..the rice dumplings thingys which my mum bought frm outside. e maid is rather unhygienic u see..so everytime she uses her dirty hands to make my sandwich, i'l suffer frm a horrible stomach ache less than an hour later. theres more to her lack of cleaniness..but i dun wish to elaborate lah. i put up with germy breakfast cuz e extra 10 minutes of slp i save is simply invaluable. im sure everyone understands.

ytd however, the ache was especially bad. upon reaching the bus stop i had a sudden urge to take a poop. after 5 minutes of deliberation, i decided i cld nt hold it any longer and i made a run for the nearest toilet at Macs. i practically shoved another dude aside the moment he exited the single cubicle. but who gives a freakin dam when ure on the verge of shitting in your pants?! i swear i wld've used the girls toilet if tht fella came out another second late.
90% of the time it takes only 1 trip to the loo to relieve myself entirely. but ytd was special. even after i got on the bus..i was alr late btw..the shit pangs hit me again n again occasionally. at least twice i siriusly felt like turning back n goin home.n pon school altogether. fortunately i made it to skul jus in time for the silly guard to reopen the side gate.. den i made another dash to the toilet.

enough about faeces. i wanna talk abt some other form of shit tht isnt so much brown/black and stinky..but is stil gross anyway.
term 3 is loaded with homework and... more more more homework. im only doin the bare minimum tht is required..and considering others who hav bin spamming tys and doin daily revisions..i tink my situation is nt v favourable. it seems tht ive been adjusting my schoolwork time to fit my play schedule. i duno wad tht means..but surely it cannot be good.
btw i gotta say this. im eff-ing getting eff-ing sick of eff-ing gp lessons. its getting so stupid becos all we do in class is prepare essay outlines for every darn ques tht we've come across so far. right now we're at 2002 alevel ques..theres still 2003.2004 and 2005. wtfsh.
oh i jus remebered i have to redo my compo becos my teacher claims 'its so horrible i can't read past the 2nd paragraph' . jus becos i didnt explicitly put in a proper stand doesnt mean u can give yrself an excuse to not read the rest of the essay man.

Chapter 32: Realising That I Do Like Doing Something

2008-07-09T23:59:00.007+08:00

a few days ago..i was kinda wondering what wld happen if blogger suddenly crashed one day. it wld b pretty amusing if .blogspots started to disappear and billions of blog entries frm millions of ppl were lost forever. nw thts a slice of electronic data fragility for all of us.
n if it ever does happen..i'l nvr log on as a blogger again. siriusly man

i corrupted a save file for NSS3 when i accidentally interrupted the saving process some days ago. didnt have a backup.. and so the only profile which i slaved my ass off trying to build up simply destroyed itself byond recovery. starting a newgame wld mean getting back to square one and reclocking nearly 100 hours of play. it wasnt worth it..so i decided to uninstall the game to keep my mind off it for the time being.

the prelims r looming but the distractions r plentiful. i wanna learn/play tennis, watch movies/southpark/prisonbreak/lost/grey's anatomy, play com and more. study is still..not-so-high of a priority right now..jeez.

speaking of tennis..i tink im gona pursue it as a new sport. 'pursue' as in learn how to play lah.. not become pro or wad..siao. i realised tht playing sport does make me sort of ..happy...like basketball soccer w/e. and ive been watching alot of tenisu no ojisama..so im starting sense a liking for the game. i played some tennis for the first time in my life yesterday..wit ivan n nabil.wasnt easy..but it sure was fun. budden if im serious abt learning..first thing i need ta do is to find ppl to play with.lol

sharapova. mi tennis idol..n i shall refrain frm posting overly sexy pics of her here. she stands at 1.85m and her strokes dam lot of power sia. nt bad for the newest no.1 women's player ahaha
.. no i dun tink tennis caught my attn cuz of her k.....tho its possibly a contributing factor..lawl yea. budden kournikova was the first hottie i got to know..sadly, she stopped playing after she totally failed at it.

got a number of dreams recently..but only bits n pieces i cannot fit tgt. i swear ive had some deja vu incidents in the last couple of days...images tht appear so familiar.. as if i dreamt them mths ago. but all those events were so insignificant..like me scrutinising a lil cut wound on my thumb. wonder why wld i b dreaming of such lame stuffs in the first place lor.

Chapter 31: I Seek Harmony

2008-07-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

when i keep failing at my games on a luckless day and online videos nvr upload quickly enuf..it rly comes down to blogging again. my last post was like yesterday..but alr i hav stuff to record. i jus spent 3 freakin hours sleeping when i was suppose to b studyin. u see, after dinner i den lay on bed reading correlationregression notes.... um didnt survive the first page.

if i dun get my after-sch naps theres jus no way in hell im ever gona b able to mug effectively. at first, i tot i shud nvr read notes on my bed lest i shud b seduced by its cool softnesss. budden i learnt tht its possible to sleep almos anytime and anywhere and anyhow. like say..while sitting at your desk or even standing on the mrt. i once almos fell onto the floor while trying to sleep standing up on the train..sure hope nobody noticed. anww..i didnt get my slp cos i spent the afternn watching zohan on the net. dere were so many funny parts..too many i tink. up to the pt whr some of them jus dun relate to the locals. the show was ok la i suppose..probably one of sandler's more interesting comedies.

the medical ytd was nth much..wasnt exciting..nor particularly boring. 2/3 of the time was used to do the aptitude test..rly jus testing yr IQ n wad nt. the chkups were pretty normal, blood test,urine test, xray, dental, ecg, height weight, bp, eyes ears yada yada. yes n sth stupid happened b4 the chkups. i went to the loo jus b4 the dam urine test..totally emptied my bladder den. so i looked like a serious fool drinking frm my water bottle in the toilet and waiting for pee. ya anw theres much controversy abt the reliability of those tests..esp after the recent deaths of ns men. the press came arnd to the centre ytd .. lucky dey din get a shot of me walking arnd topless or anyting.

i took the short 4 question personality test. surprisingly accurate for the no. of ques it has..other tests so long winded stil get my personality wrong..noobs. anw the description i read is like 95 percent correct i tink..even the frens and relationship stuffs. one thing abt these personailty tests is tht its highly positive in giving descriptions. i rly dun tink they'l say ..oh! u share the same personality as hitler. wow gd luck to you.

i decided to save the page. it cld gimme some ideas on what to write for tht testimonial thingy i hav to do for myself.. so silly la.

my english writing is getting weirdd..i suspect its the bloggin'....hmmm

Chapter 30: You Cannot Defeat the Sith

2008-07-02T10:21:00.017+08:00

Successfully completed the Star Wars KotoR 2 ytd..but for most parts i didnt understand the plot cos the Jedi jus love to talk in such a cryptic manner. w/e...tht aside..it wasnt a bad game. heres my character during last parts of the game.(top pic) the redness is due to the 'red alert' alarms...not because ive turned into Sith or anytin..

on saturday, i went to to the toy and comics convention @ suntec. twas crowded as i expected, but at least there was some stuff worth seeing there.

i didnt realise tht the pictures i took were all star wars thingys until i gt home. most of the other pix turned out to b ruined cos ppl intruded into the frame while i was taking. however the star wars exhibit was more .....how to say..'exclusive' in a sense tht u had to queue up to get in. i guess thts why i had less trouble getting decent pics.

anw the toys are really nice..but stil beyond my financial means. especially those bigg ones tht u can put in a giant display case like a coveted trophy..mm..

in the mean time tho, ive set my sights on the playstation3. maybe i can save enuf by the time alevels end..n tgt with my mum and bro's contributions..i can purchase 1 soon enuf.

going for ns medical chkup later..i planned it in like may..intentionally. to skip school..especially double gp lesson. luckily it was tis week and nt last wk or nxt wk cos of cca reasons. i get to miss prac today cos of the medical..lol.

n i stil cant get the pics to align properly. damn

Chapter 29: A New Term

2008-06-26T21:03:00.003+08:00

starting a new term has nvr been so..eee. ct results were the worst among all other exams ive taken so far in nj. i failed one subject..econs..with an S..which ive nvr gotten b4. ive nvr even gotten below 50 before..but chem was another sub tht had the honours of breaking tht record. nehmindd..im nt so affected by the results. theres stil the prelims which is much more impt so i'l b sure to prepare for it. anw i passed the rest, improved in physics, dropped a grade in math and gp..well..stil stuck in shit grade.

the teachers are starting to creep me out. they are bugging us to seriously..start studying. yesterday i gt home and found my computer games boring. dammit what hav they done.
mr tan was telling us tht u dun wan to regret for nt giving yr best in yr a's. with 1 in 2 students getting 3As and above for at least the past two years..anyting less would b pretty hard to accept.

and all the anticipation i had for the new timetable has gone poof like a fu*kin pussy bomb. one by one the teachers hav quelled rumors abt a new and 'improved' timetable nxt week ..so u can say the principal was bullshitting. plus plus plus..the 3 day week is nt as awesome as i tot. the 3 days of school will actually b extended to accomodate more lessons zz. so there goes my hope of getting gp slashed.

ah yes i watched Wanted today. twas unplanned..sean and i decided to jalan arnd wesmall after lunch..(i ate the 2 daily savers burgers frm mac lol..din feel like having the meal) ended up catching the local premiere . its nt released in the US yet..yup its strange cos sometimes movies are either released earlier or much later here. great movie..sth fresh. nt just another action flick id say. quite some humor in it despite all the blood splats frm headshots all over. there was some plot twisting, interesting stunts,effects and of cos a nice dose of action. the actor made a second's reference to 'wilbur' in the movie...hahaha. and i was wondering why he called the pig "wilbur" lolll...twas jus a funny lil remark.

lotsa cool movies comin up. dark knight, zohan, hancock, hellboy, x-files? n maybe wall.e and tropic thunder. watching vids and stuff will most likely become a main form of destressing frm now on..i gotta quickly complete my games and start uninstalling them.

Chapter 28: Tagged

2008-06-21T22:57:00.003+08:00

haiz. how old alr stil play tag.. anw i feel i shud do tis to get to know myself better..tink it helps.

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: mark
Birthdate: 26th feb 1990
Current status: alive
Eye colour: black i think. booring
Hair colour(s): black. again
Righty or lefty: right

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
My heritage: grandparents from china. parents from malaysia. but im a malaysian who spent all my life in singapore. so how?
Fears: the dark, sharks, sea/ocean, zombies and ghosts
My weaknesses: hum ji
My perfect pizza : anchovies+ pepperoni + lotsa meat + extra cheese. preferably no capsicum and or pineapples

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My first thoughts waking up: ..what year is it?
My bedtime: n.a.
My most missed memory: nope can't rmb dude.

LAYER 4: MY PICK
Pepsi or coke: pepsi
McDonalds or Burger king: burger king. one fine day im gona eat their burger thts the size of a dinner plate.
Single or group dates: single..with a female of course. paves the way for hanky pankies
Adidas or Nike: gee i duno. adidas means "All Day I Dream About Sex". sounds gd to me.
Tea or Nestea: what the hell is nestea?! yucks to tea also
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla doesnt taste gd on its own. chocolate.
Cappucino or Coffee: hardly drink so i duno.

LAYER 5: DO YOU…
Smoke: yes. thanks to the idiot at the morning bus stop who shares so kindly.
Curse: love it.
Take a shower: nt particularly fond of it. but yes
Have a crush: now no time for crush..after ns maybe.
Think you have been in love: the concept of love is alr so complex. putting an 'in' in front of love is ..madness
Go to school: yea
Want to get married: definitely!
Believe in yourself: in certain things.. like games probably. and my awesome luck
Think your a health freak: almoss dere baby. i hate eating anywhr else other than home..home food isnt exactly great..but at leaast i noe wad goes INto the cookin'.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol: slowly adapting to the bitterness
Gone to the mall: stupid ques deserves no answer
Been on stage: a few times.
Eaten sushi: yes
Dyed your hair: nt yet.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: nope. but i hope to..if dere are girls. hahaha
Changed who you were to fit in: dun tink so..sounds difficult..

LAYER 8: AGE YOU ARE HOPING
To be married: 26-28
Get a job: after uni

LAYER 9: IN A GAL
Best eye colour: blue
Best hair colour: red
Short hair or long hair: no preference

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
A minute ago: forgot
Hour ago: forgot
Hours ago: hmm..forgot
1 Month Ago: mugging for ct?
Year ago: wow im damn sure i was playing my beloved playstation.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES
I love: and therefore i am. now wtf am i talking abt. nvm it jus sounds deep lol
I feel: that we should all just take it easy. life's helluv a gd thing
I hate: nothing. hate is a strong word..rmb tht.
I hide: porno nxt to my textbooks
I miss: all the money tht i spent in my whole life. yeaa..wonder how much tht amounts to...
I need: money, money and more money

LAYER 12: TAG 3 PEOPLE
no one else left to tag. only ppl left are chua and reka. so its up to them.

Chapter 27: So Thats What "Inaugural" Means

2008-06-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

mon and tue was the angklung symposium..which is supposed to b the first ever. rgs hosted abt 8 or 9 other schools. there was loyang, nj and st anthony's cannossian, st theresa's etc...sac and stc were also under the rgs instructor ms faridah. ms faridah is v much unlike mr dzul, she had alot to say abt almos anyting..maybe its cos she was an ex student of raffles..

the first day was weird becos i tink the nj peeps were kinda extra..everyone else was in sec school. they split us into 12 groups of 9(?) which were only useful for the ice breaking and station games. i only rmbered a name or two of those in my grp..cos they were the most talkative. in general i tink the rgs girls were nice ppl, at least i didn see signs of arrogance coming frm them. maybe 2 days is a lil too short to deduce anyting on their behaviour.
some of dem wld prolly be in the same uni cohort as myself..after im released frm ns. den again..if ure frm a raffles sch..u wld likely hav a place in an overseas uni..otherwise its only law or medicine in nus here.
ok so we had talks..expected of all typical symposiums..learning about stuffs frm the indonesian experts frm bandung. i was trying hard to keep my eyes open rly..at other times i was using my meagre knowledge of the malay lang to translate what they were saying. ms faridah was dere to do the real translation of course. dere was little interaction btwn schools..tho in a combined sch event like tis..they always try to mix u up. i cld tell some rgs girls din wan to b dere also..dey try to hang out amongst their own as far as possible. and den there was the president, of all ppl..zz..she came to approach us guys..against her will im sure. twas an awkward situation nt being able to strike up a decent convo. the 1st day had nth much..and we ended early after prac.

we learnt 6 short songs for the concert..rly short..less than a min each. the highlight wasnt going to b all the schools performing tgt..but the rgs ensem and the champion angklung team frm bandung. i tink the sch is called santa yusoff..rly skilled players dey have. when they play u can tell they are dam proud of their music..which is no surprise, given the fame they brought to their school. the kids were like junior high age, and holding 6 angklungs per person. they needed no scores whatsoever and cld play songs like mama mia which was dam nice. they only needed an accompaniment of 1 kulintang player, 2 drummers..1 of dem on a modern drum set and a giant cello player. hmm. the finale was an rgs song called volare. tht was the only song a played on the box. and nabil too.
the rgs ensem was focused qt a bit on their own players..i didnt noe why until the 2nd day. i tot it was a symposium for all..but actually they wanted to make the final show their own. after all it was their homeground and dey had the final say. i jus wanted to play my angklung and go home..it was tiring to last the day. in the end i gained some things while losing my precious hol time. one, a first time look inside the rgs sch..real smooth place i mus say. and two, tht there are angklung standards out dere tht we may hav yet to reach.
there were many hickups during the symposium..but its a first for them so i guess dey'l improve somehow and get ahead everybody else like dey always do. certain activities were cut as a result of practise..and even then we werent prepared for a combined performance.the food was hardly any gd. but at least i gt a free shirt tht wasnt so bad looking hahha..

Chapter 26: Singapore 2014

2008-06-15T13:43:00.002+08:00

okay it looks like after yesterday's loss to the Saudi's.. the Lions are gona have to wait for another 4 years for another shot at the world cup (in 2014). or perhaps maybe they'l b more realistic tis time..aim for the 2022 world cup. yeaa uh..i'l b 32 by den, brazil wld prolly have won the cup another 2 times more and my kids will b old enuf to b watching soccer.
yesterday's soccer was just not them..it was poor playing accompanied by a strategy tht was nt working. i tink they only had 5 shots at goal thru the 90 minutes and only abt 2 was weakly on target. compare this to the saudi's who had i tink 10 shots and 2 goals. watching it live at the stadium was dam fun cos evry1 was shouting frm the gallery. evrytime the ref made a decision tht wasnt in favor of the sg team..so many ppl shouted all sorts of funny things. and amidst all the OI's and WALAO's and GOAL's (that never rly happened) i was laughing my butt off at how excitement can make ppl yell with such ...i duno wads the word. hahaha

1 more week of holiday left and i stil gt homework to do..im guessing for the first time in 18 yrs, i'l b leaving holiday hw to AFTER the hols. and i havent play enough sia...basket

Chapter 25: The Good and Bad of a Plan

2008-06-11T20:41:00.003+08:00

Plans are meant to help organise things..put a time and place for everything. but when things screw up due to wadever reasons, i end up creating a bigger mess than before i started. since the first week of hols i set out to do a certain amt. of homework each day. frm experience, i noe i shudnt kay kiang..but set targets tht are realistic and easy to accomplish. but stil there are times when over-slacking is like dam nice..jus playyy only. the bad thing is, i'l have to make up for tht wise ass decision sooner or later. meaning: homework gets postponed, and i suffer w/o play for one of those days. but it can be good if ppl adhere to the schedule.. den things can flow smoothly. otherwise..all it does is create unneccessary stress.

i gt bak my letter frm obk a few days ago..dun wanna read it. i tink i stil rmb wads inside..bleah. it only makes me tink abt the misery of nt achieving wad i ultimately paid 2000 bucks for..dam mountain i shud hav conquered u..but ure lucky cos i got owned by a freakin roadside pancake...
in any case i'l be back..i hate leaving things half done..gives a terrible sense of something missing.

...i jus got some pocket money frm my dad. im guessing its meant for the 1 week of school at at the end of june. but its straangee becos he gave me a month's worth of allowance...hmm fishy..he nvr gives allowance during the holidays.
it could be tht some of it is meant for july..den when the the 1st of july comes hes jus gona top up like maybe only 1 week of allowance. it has happened before..and was caught offguard. i was such a fool to believe he was suddenly so generous..tis time i oughta b careful..

Chapter 24: A Record Low

2008-06-06T21:56:00.005+08:00

We were suppose to have a class outing today which somehow scaled down to a mere group outing. the people who went: the 2 organisers ( one to inform the girls, the other to inform guys), plus me and the guy who sits beside me in class. =.=

its nt the first time tht we have had such pathetic class outings..but it cannnot b helped. jc sch life has no time for the building of class spirit, especially when there are more than a dozen peeps in cls who nvr went thru orientation tgt. i was one of them. i hate to admit it..but lame orientations are in fact important and an integral part of getting to know yr new classmates.

dere are many reasons attributing to the lack of class spirit..which we can't even solve. why bother talking abt school spirit? i reckon that we jus dun love tis school well enuf..

anw..i tot to myself tht i shud make it a point to go for these rare class outings to make up for for supposed introvertness and to show tht i have a social life. its nt nice being called an anti-social..i ttink it makes ppl feel sorry for u cos dey tink ure suffering in yr loneliness. well i dunnid their pity.. its nt like i'l ever die of solitude. i guess thts one thing which people, with chatty mouths tht can't shut, don't understand.

so we went to the settlers' cafe, whr they hav all these exotic board/card games and also the common ones. its a gr8 place to relax with a buncha frens..try out new games, tht for once does not involve electrical technology. id sound like an ancient monkey wasting my time on a low tech mode of entertainment..but im jus saying tht it beats havin to stare at a lighted screen all day long.
playing paper games is one thing u cant do on yr own..and its only fun playing with ppl 'in the flesh'..not over the net
gee.. i suppose technology does reduce real-life interaction..

Chapter 23: The End is Nigh? You duno that..

2008-06-01T02:10:00.004+08:00

i went for aristal ytd. it was great, except tht the seats were lousy cos of ppl in front blocking. but i cld stil see enough to recognise some of the dancers frm whr i was. the lights made it rather strenous on my eyes..perhaps it was the smokey thing as well. n the loud music was cool..reminds me tht i shud get a quality set of headphones for myself..im sick of losing parts of my mp3 earphones all the time. the song by western's dance's 2nd performance caught my attn..but i cant find it leh. i rmb hearing" georgia...oh georgia"? maybe there was a pop vers of ray charles "georgia on my mind" but its nowhr to b found .........

after the show we travelled down to clarke quay. it was kinda late but i din feel like going home. we drank some cheap beer n sat by the riverside. and talk cock. i hardly saw any kids like us hanging arnd dere... i rightly assume its whr adults mostly go to have fun. maybe one day i myself wld b dining in one of those classy restaurants and hanging out in slick bars...hmm..

took the night rider home..im surprised tht there are actually qt a number of peeps who take the bus home at 1am in the morning. bus fare was a flat 3.50..zzz..but it stil beats taking a cab back. when i reached home at two plus i found 2 of my 6 fleets destroyed. dang. i lost five thousand points. thats a day's worth of hard work swashed down the toilet bowl.

just a random note before i forget: i think andrea corr is pretty. well..at least i thought so 10 years ago..when she was like mid twenties. duno how she's like now.

i mus say ima skeptic of doomsday 2012. after watching the documentary, it has failed to convince me tht apocalypse will occur on 21/12/2012 (i tot of making a list of errors in the show..but aiya lazy). ok im willing to believe in aliens n shit, but tis jus dun cut it. however, the stuff abt the earth shifting its poles cos of some alignment in the centre of the galaxy? yeaa tht might just cause half the world to die.. but that, im afraid, doesnt spell the end. it may be a damning period of major disasters..global floods, earthquakes and wad hav you..but humans will make it through somehow. now the 'E'ND refers to sth else tht nobody will ever predict. im religion-biased by the way. the book of revelation only said when the end time comes.. He will return to rule again. it didnt say anyting abt 2012 at all. im also taught tht none will be able to predict when the exact date will b..so it is more important us to b concerned abt how we live our lives.

predictions are fun to make. even more awesome if they come true. 'shoot enough bullets and you'l eventually hit something' thts wad some1 said about psychic abilities. how many other countless prophecies..or so claimed..out dere tht did not happen at all? duno, didnt say? of course..who's interested in predictions tht nvr happened..

Chapter 22: I just can't stop lamenting

2008-05-29T13:48:00.007+08:00

im nt exactly in a very gd mood rite now. after spending a whole morning and almost half the afternoon doing math's HYPOTHESIS TESTING..im jus seriously pissed. tis is NOT the way i shud b spending my holidays. tsk..doing homework till i almos die of confusion.argh

By estimation, doing one piece of hw per day, excluding days whr im not at home and taking to account big-assed hw such as chem revision package which need to b split up, by the time i finish all of it the june holidays would have fuckin ended.

i hav already cut down on play.. such that theres not enough time to watch all the shows i wanna watch, read the stuff i wanna read. izzin holidays all about doing stuff u WANT TO DO? sorry, but it'l take a billion gazillion years b4 homework makes Mark's list of "Things I want to do".

Chapter 21.2: MY LIGHTSABER!!

2008-05-26T21:12:00.002+08:00

daammn its looks so awesome i wanna cry. but the best has yet to come heh heh.

Chapter 21: My Bike is Screwed

2008-05-26T19:17:00.004+08:00

bah. i walked home frm lot 1 yesterday..nt tht i had intended to. but my bike screwed up when i was going home. the back wheel was leaking air apparently..but i didnt notice while i was making my way to the mall tht noon. i even took the new scenic ulu route jus for fun..n i passed by my old sch, which is under renovation at the moment. so anw..i had to walk my bike back home..n many a times i jus felt like dumping tht piece of scrap by the roadside. but its my dad's bike..and has been with us for more than 10 years. besides..my dad wun believe it til he sees it..so i wun allow him to fault me for tht. stupid walk stretched for nearly an hour..n some ppl who walked past automatically looked at the bike to see if it was busted or sth. others jus gav me the weird look..like "why on earth are u walking when u hav a frekain bicycle."

why did i cycle to lot1? so tht i cld take the bus to chinatown..where sean and i visited the flea market in csc. it was surprisingly lively..much unlike the weekdays/saturdays when hardly a soul roamed shopping place. they were selling all sorts of stuffs..mostly collectibles like toys, currencies, art, accessories and whatnot. i found a super gd deal..but i refrained frm dashing out to the atm to draw money n pay for it. "used to be 190..but price drop 40 dollars. now 150..last set." lastsetlastsetlastset...LAST SET.. i was very tempted to buy it..but no..i figured he prolly said tht to evry customer (the price is dam gd tho). i didnt buy in the end. sean said i was jus being niao (stingy)..well maybe tht too.

im halfway thru kotor and i stil dun hav a blasted lightsaber. if u ever hrd of starwars at all..u'l know its ridiculous for a jedi to not have a lightsaber(tht light stick which cuts thru any shit possible.)

my dad asked me to find out how to enrol in driving sch. he suggests i take the theory test b4 my A's den after tht i can do the driving part. i doubt its possible..but i'l chk it out anw. hmm..i duno if im even of legal age to drive?..zz.wadever..i'l learn to drive sooner or later..so it aint a priority.

again it seriously bugs me tht most of my frens hav hardly any gp hw for the hols. who else but those in mrs nair's classes will hav 4 compo n 4 compre to do?? nvm..i'l make use of the time to do up some research for my gp..den craft out a proper essay.

i didnt know it until after saturday's angklung outing..but the j2's have somewhat stepped down alr. nt officially.. but practises frm then on are optional for us. its gd news..cos i was expecting to be bugged down with lotsa practises over the hols. phew.

Chapter 20: Threatening my Hols

2008-05-22T21:38:00.003+08:00

its back to sch tmr..for one last day b4 the term officially ends. one last day they soo purposely saved to hurl any last minute shit onto us b4 sch is out of everyone's mind for a whole dam month.

for one..i'l bet new homework will b given out..like econs, maths and gp. maybe there'l be an announcement for gp make-up ( i sure hope not) or sth during the holidays. i dun qt rmb..but i tink mrs nair said there'l b at least 4 essays to do..each of which hav to b handed in at regular intervals during the break. as for econs? what else can dey giv except essay..or case study..which is also an essay in essence. maths shud b revision pack.Again.

a couple of things i hav to rmb for the hols.
1. aristal
2. cip at nuh
3. angklung symposium
4. gg bak to malaysia
5. homework
6. angklung prac..i tink
7. outings
8. almos forgot...play
9.workshop

ive been playing kotor2 a tad bit too much..i tink the pace is gettin too slow for my liking. looks like i hav to source out for another game v soon.

seriously cash strapped for the holidays. i suspect i'l b limited to 60 dollars to spend..of which abt 10 will b used for ezlink. 40+ approx. for about 4 outings..that leaves with 10 dollars...erm..in case i overspend.

the soln is not to ask for more money or to request for allowance. it is merely a challenge to keep my budget under control. sometimes knowing that u can avoid spending unneccessarily is a gd thing..like walking instead of taking a 55cent feeder bus home..or riding a bike 10 minutes down to the mall. budden sumtimes i jus guilty of splurging at one big shot..leaving me with holes in my pocketsess. in tht case its my own fault for havin no money. BO LUI AHHH!!

Chapter 19: CTs are O-V-E-R

2008-05-20T22:18:00.005+08:00

yesss.......finally a trying period has came to end..with the approaching sch hols adding the perfect finishing touch. but i must say the last step was pure agony and suffering.

first of all i didnt get enough sleep ytd night becos my idiot bro was studying all night long. allll night as in frm 10pm mon night to 6am tue morning. i duno wads up with him. he spent the whole of mon playing dai di and starcraft on the comp and den decided to stay up to study. it was affecting my slp becos altho he was in the living rm..my room door was unable to block out all the light.( thx to a stupid glass window with white paper covering it) at first i blamed myself for taking the 1 hr nap in the evening..but after 4,5 hrs stoning on the bed..(till abt 3am) i began to hate him for it.

it was to fuckin hot to sleep too. shitty weather.

so i woke up the next day (or rather, a few hrs later,) totally feeling like shit..pains to keep my eyes open. drinking the chicken essence didnt rly work. in fact, i tink it made it worse...so i guess its kinda like a double edged sword. if u drink it when ure 'ok' den it makes u extra alert. but if u down it when u dun feel so gd..den it'l jus amplify the negative effects.

i did the physics paper anw. i wldnt like to tink how well or how badly i fared for the papers...theres no pt in wasting my precious hols in brooding over such stuffs ..cos..well *shrugs*, its over.

i duno if my class had any outing after the paper..the only thing in my mind was to get home asap, eat shower sleep. i was not in the mode for any celebration wadsoever becos the headache was worsening..'sides..wads the rush. u gt a mth ahead to spoil yrself.

ok so i got a gd rest..while i waited for KotOR to finish downloading. after my nap..i settled down and continued reading Picoult's Nineteen Minutes. an intriguing book definitely. its about a sch shooting jus like the one in columbine..except tis time the killer didnt blow his brains out and so theres more of a story to tell. as quoted frm the comments " [a book] that dares remind us that someone loved the killer". as i read, i was surprised how i actually felt sympathy for the murderer and his family. more often than not, the perpetrators are seen by everyone as evil and crazy..but in this book..it kinda showed that..even they are the victims sometimes.

my father is getting rly pissed abt our neighbours who sing karaoke so loud and dam horribly thru the night. hes considering whether he shud call the police and tell them he cannot even hear his radio becos some bums are singing too loudly in the next block. seriously...u can hear dem clearly enuf despite the fact tht they are living in the opposite block. zz..utter disturbances to the peace.
another thing: hes also unhappy abt the bird problem (pigeon n crows all over) in sg lol. i find it funny cos i noe hes angry abt the birdies shitting all over his car. he once had a chat with a neighbour. who suggested the trees in the car park shud b chopped so as to cut down on the birds' shitting sites. in any case..he said if the avian flu ever comes bak to haunt us..den we are surely in for it cuz they nvr bothered to use bird control.hahaha..

yea n i almos forgot to blog becos ive bin busy playing my new game since evening. knights of the old republic 2: sith lords. its a 2003 game..but game's requirements jus nicely meets my comp's specs. thts how sucky my comp is. anw t'was chimmer to understand than any other game ive played..but the fun part is always the learning process.

alrite...im signing off. may the force be with you. dun waste rice..prices have increased by 50-100 percent..

Chapter 18: 3 days to end of CT

2008-05-17T11:26:00.004+08:00

thankfully the ct period is short. otherwise it'l be more days of mugging or more days of slacking AND feeling guilty about it. wtf i dun deserve to feel ashamed abt playing...zz

still if we didnt hav the 2 days of lame study breaks on mon n tue, the CTs wld hav ended like freakin ytd. most ppl say its useful n impt becos they rly nid it to study..but i disagree. how can u depend on study breaks to tell u 'hey slackbutt its time to mug.' nono...it doesnt work tht way.

even if they strongly believe tht it does giv them more time..then it shud b pushed earlier to the previous week's thur and fri...will tht work btr for them then? i guess maybe thts y the sch lets us off 1 mth b4 the As..so tht ppl will finally realise its time to get working.

anw i've resolved to boost my gen.k by reading up during the june hols.. for gp unfortunately. ytd i borrowed a jodi picoult bestseller..ive nvr read a picoult..but there was some hype arnd it. hope its gd.
mental note to self: library book loan period is 3 weeks..nt 4. at the moment, i hav an outstanding fine of 60 cents on my acc. tht i refuse to pay.

Chapter 17: 3 days to CT

2008-05-11T00:18:00.003+08:00

becos ive been slacking my butt away on a saturday.. ive managed to find some time to blog.

i started the morning with south park videos..1 more episode till i finish with season 1 :)

after lunch i started on the maths revision package..the statistics stuffs. took 4 bloody hours to do until normal dist. den went to play ps2...zzzz cldnt hold back the temptation man..
den after playing i went to sleep.-.-

later tht night, my father brought out an ancient relic from the depths of his cd collection. no wait..its not even a cd. its a freakin LD! LOL Laser Disc ftw woooh! fyi if u haven seen such a thing b4..its slightly bigger than a medium sized canadian pizza.
he started playing the movie Top Gun. i realised i havent watched it in such a long while..nearly forgot wad a great show it was. hence i shall add on to my list of fav movies alongside the one and only other 'The Fifth Element'. some ppl haven even heard of these shows..pssfh..how can?? embarrassing..id say its best not to call yrself a super movie fan if u din noe such blockbusters existed..yeaaa

right after tht was the tv premiere of DOOM. yet another mindless survival horror flick for the game fanatics. its so unfair tht movies adapted from games often turn out to be so disappointing..tht includes final fantasy and resident evil. totally unjustified.

so i wasted the whole night nt doing any study. still..here i m blogging abt nonsense. brain officially shut down an hour and a half ago anw.

on monday, prison break 3 and lost 3 will hav their season premieres on tv. unfortunately ive given up on the tele a loong time ago. its terribly inconvenient to miss shows on tv ( damn school work and exams) especially when they r serials..so ive resorted to watching evrything on the net. can even dl them to watch at my own time. ha-ha. take tht u stupid tv

Chapter 16: 6.5 days to CT

2008-05-07T18:21:00.005+08:00

tis morning i went back to sleep after breakfast.. tinking if i shud skip school tht day. but after a whole ten minutes, i rationalized tht all the trouble (to get an mc/ parent's letter) was not worth it.
the last gp lesson for the term turned out to b a no-go. once again my MC-queen of a gp teacher decided to pon class at the most convenient time of the term. she was suppose to teach us more on the 6-point AQ and revise some essay techniques with us..but ya..gl nvr come.

so i spent the doubleperiod n lunch cramming 2 chem chapters...freakily slow by my standards. cld've done another if i had not had the radio on. michelle chong was a guest on the Dan n Young show and she was dam funny la. she'd seriously make gd partners with those 2 jokers on their show. i also hrd a LeonaLewis interview on Desiree's lunch time buddy thing. her real voice was so sweet n girly tht i cldnt believe it was the voice i hrd in Bleeding Love.

den after sch gt the sports meet. v waste of time..budden cannot escape oso. e sch locked us in like prisoners...and the library was shut in anticipation of supermuggers planning to evade e mind-numbing hse activities. it was nice tho to see certain ppl in their sporty side..looks awesome.
on a random note. ol'junky has once again raised its fingerfood prices. currently curry'os are priced at 1.20 while e sotong onstik costs a whooping 1.50. ..means can go toilet 15 times in chinatown or maybe 30 times in m'sia. thts the value of money.

My latest imeem song "Bila aku jatuh cinta (when im falling in love)" by indo band Nidji is , at the moment, topping my interesting songs list. its a list whr the no.1 song hardly stays for more than a week. my other list is the all-time favs..a different thing altogether lol.

Catchy parts: "Me-lewaatii dinggginyaaaa mimpiiii...(chorus)"
very emo, with a v modern western tune to go with it..hardly sth u'l expect frm such an unknown band. i kinda like them..their english song styles is qt similar to the killers. anwww.. translating the indo phrase above..it means " through the coldness of my dreams..."

Dreams! had 2 memorable dreams recently. shall do a routine recording here.

dream02
pw day but i went to sch nt knowing i was presenting
not prepared
..forgot wad happen

dream03
me drew sth cool on some blackish surface
i was using some sorta chalky tool
archangel tht resembled diablo 2's ____

Chapter 15: Boky's nonsense

2008-04-29T23:39:00.006+08:00

I met Boky on the way out of school today..he came out from the far side of the grandstand..so i was wondering wad he was doin dere. he said he went to do 'some exercise' which i assumed was running or sth..den i said napfa over alr wad..but he said he has to retake lol. apparently he slacked during his 2.4..clocking 13 minutes plus so he got a bronze or w/e. tht means he has to retake his whole test, 6 items i tink. its a shame....gone are the days whr a bronze standard was acceptable by the school.

he was gg home so i took the same bus as he did. we chatted about the strange weather.. u know..raining like hell last mth but tis mth so dam hot. guess the el nina effect is prolly at work. den he started talking about alevels.. calling it a 'Shimmy Sham' or Skimmy Scam" lol or sumting lydat. he jokes tht its a conspiracy by the board of examiners that all exams are purely for show. according to him, all the papers we take are collected and end up dumped in a stupid cardboard box somewhr in the ministry of edu. they will nvr set foot on english soil nor will anyone even bother to mark them.

then the results are fabricated by making estimations of normally distributed score ranges. the schools r allocated a portion of the curve based on their rankings..whr the btr schools concentrate near the right and the not-so-good ones r wayyy to the left. then for each school another bell curve is constructed..tis time..to determine the mean. boky says schools like HC will hav their mean scores so high their curves will b distorted to the right..den NJ by comparison will also have sth like dat..but obviously less extreme. =.= after which, students in each sch r given random scores based on perhaps their name or serial number.
if yr name start with M for example..then they will see..hmmm (strokes beard)..based on past year data..those name start with M one got 99 percent distinction. so they giv u the benefit of the doubt ..if ure lucky heehee.

den i asked. wad if the person asks to see the marked papers from the ministry hq?
Boky: " Aiyaa who will wan to see?? u hav to pay like 100 over dollars jus to get a look at it..and even if reli got ppl wan..they'l tell u to come back another day cos they say cant find it so fast. den they'l spend the time vandalising yr paper in red for yr sake."

considering the possibility tht such things are true..then it makes no sense wadsoever to study anymore. tht is of course..the ideal situation.

p.s. he gave me a piece of advice on studying. says he: if ure the kind tht listens to music when u mug..beware. changing songs becos u dun like wad ure hearing on the radio or w/e is a sure sign tht u arent CONCENTRATING. hence the reason y i fil music does not not go tgt with books.

Chapter 14: Compensated?

2008-04-26T14:22:00.006+08:00

the last of physics spa was completed today, marking the end of science experiments for the next 3 years at least. i felt that i did good..writing down wad i wanted to write with a clear mind at work. so no regrets to bug me lol.
napfa ended too, with brilliant scores -in my opinion. i even surprised myself. 29/30, almos perfect. my sit and reach was the only B, as thts my worst station of all. i guess my poor ability to stretch is partly due to my bad slouching and er..disproportionate arm to leg length ratio. but i finally got an A for 2.4 WahaHahAAa. personal record smashing time of 10:13 totally owned everyone in my class. my secret? weekly 5k runs and outer lap runs every week..but most of all..last minute motivation.

u see, as i was 200 metres from the finishing line, this horde of canoeists caught up with me from behind. i was thinkin...ohhh WTF??

"Last stretch guys! CHEOOONGGG AHH!!"
"NOOOOooooooo~!!!!"

to avoid being crushed by the oncoming stampede i dashed the last half a round like i nvr did b4. the fear is real..u can hear dem doubling up their pace and making a dash for the finish..so i oso follow lor. best thing was..to those at the grandstand, i looked as tho i beat the canoeists HAHA. (actually they started a few seconds later)

so far the day was going great..kinda compensated for the horrible test-screwing friday. dennnn...i went to angklung..and saw tis dude, whom i didnt rly like, playing my instrument. i was like ee ...sian.zz i didnt really wan to teach some1 like him to inherit it from me. i mean..my predecessors were rly some cool ppl. the first person who played the Box Drum was the top malay student of Olevel '04 and also scored 6 distinctions in Alevels '06. then the 2nd person was the President of NJC's 39th student council..and his A's were pretty good too. and me? the first non-malay player lor...no la..no nid to say 1 ..im jus simply great. so now tis guy (i can't tink of anyting good to say abt him) is gona end the line of great ppl. wad a waste..

but Nvm its the conductor's choice and it shud b respected. he knows wads best for the ensemble. =)

Chapter 13: A proper update

2008-04-24T15:23:00.004+08:00

Thursday is a science day on my timetable. 2 science lectures followed by 2 lab sessions. i studied 1 econs chapt during physics lect. so did my fren. tht day's lecturer, my phy teacher, was talking abt latent heat and ideal gas..past years stuff..z. besides..hes just reading off notes..no point listening.

Break came and i played my fren's hp games in bytz. interesting game whr u can build buildings from earth tht stretch to mars. im a major noob compared to him..cos hes kinda like a game master. plus hes president of Strategic Games Society. and ambition is to become a Chess Master. <.<

Physics practical lesson...nth much...the class just pummeled questions on SPA thts comin up on sat..ive gt a pretty gd idea wads gona appear. so i'l make neccessary preps tmr.

Chem lab was converted to double tut. wtfh. double alr nvm..we were stil dismissed half an hr late. thts like 130 hrs straight of chemistry. 3 hrs of chem in all including lecture.
and i forgot to bring my tutorial soo..had to listen attentively and copy lotsa shit.

i saw zoe today. she came ta support AC soccer team..but i din stop to say hi cos i had to bloody rush home to slp and mug. zz

Chapter 12: Censor my Ass

2008-04-22T20:07:00.005+08:00

Recently the local censorship board have made it a point to slap a couple of age restrictions on video games. once again, the old farts and big talk conservatives of the 'board' have decided to act seh and implement a policy that hav left thousands of young ppl like me seething. wad makes them think they can fight back the ever-growing pressures of liberism? old-fart-thinking mayb. nowadays ppl snog openly on the mrt..lesbians in fact..kissing n whatever not right in front of me. not to say not nice but... ErhMM..Point Is..wad makes the board think tht an extra bit of bloodiness is gona alter the face of our future society? please b realistic..yr efforts will b in vain so yall shud jus stop pretending to protect innocent minds right now.

and the way they put it..playing on words to make them look so noble.. really makes me want to slap them upside down. im sure uve seen in the movies...b4 the film starts.. they will play a brainwashing message about their beautiful policy.

"Now with a new rating system..viewers get to enjoy more variety etc....Movies rated PG offer familes Choices...NC16 give young ppl more to Choose from...M18 ..and R21 blah blah blah.."

wrong,wrong... no and more nos. they hav started their explanation from kiddie shows upward. so that way they can say that as we grow older, a wider range of films will be available to youths. technically thats true..but did you see how they manipulated a buncha words to put their ideas in a good light? contrary to what they claim, we've actually missed out a number of great movies, be it horror or drama, jus cos they r deemed beyond us.. but adults get to watch em..so ultimately they hav more Choice.

some Head of the Censorship Board appeared on the news a few weeks ago... crapping out the same reasons for placing age restrictions on games. if thts how she rly tinks..den i suspect her children only play (or played) Hello Kitty-like games at home.

Chapter 11: The Road to Slackdom

2008-04-20T20:00:00.005+08:00

I thought that with the end of concert, can finally catch up with homework. but on the contrary ive fallen even further behind. i hav been intentionally leaving hw to do during lectures, and the weekly gp articles im supposed to b doin hv been brushed aside ( currently 3 articles behind..but still.. btr than others hu hav given up eons ago) . n it doesnt help tht i hav such an inflexible schedule, which is constantly sabotaged by surprise homework tht i failed to predict. so either im getting slack.. or my psychic powers r deteriorating.
NoW is not exactly a good time to slack. ct is arnd the corner n having such an attitude will surely guarantee my future as a roadsweeper. for those of u hu tink im a mugger, please, come take a look at my class. im pretty much a common specimen there.

Anw. if u haven noticed..i got my imeem working. i'l prolly change songs once a fortnight since there r many interesting ones (to me a least) in my library.

Electrico's I Want You is qt old alr..tink i first heard it when i was in Sec 2. but dam hard to find cos its a local song and it seems no one in the right internet mind wld bother to upload anyting made in sg.

Catchy parts
1: " When you come home baby, i know somehow your eyes have gone astray.." and the tune for tht part.

Chapter 10: My insides went on a rough ride

2008-04-17T20:13:00.006+08:00

Im home early today cos my cip got canceled..the kiddo had napfa test after sch. so once again i made a wasted trip all the way to Sembawang and ate lunch tht i cld hav otherwise eaten at home for FREE. on the brighter side, i found a quicker way to reach the place..after like half a yr of travelling.

the last few days ive bin suffering frm back n abdominal pain. i guess its becos i overexerted myself by running 6 outer laps during pe. den i stupidly did pull ups..which nearly tore my body into 2 halves while i attempted to haul myself up. i pulled my stomach muscles.. and for a few days i felt 'full' tho i hardly ate anyting. as a result, i gt stomach aches tinking tht i was nt hungry. imagine yr stomach growling even tho u feel damn stuffed. n my back zzZZ..running my fingers along my backbone i cld detect a little gap somewhr....hmm.pain sia

reporting on junk food intake, i ate pizza twice in 5 days .. in addition to a sinful yet heavenly $9.90 haagen daaz chocolate tree sundae within tht period of time. nice but... erm...nth..jus nice lo.

anw..id like to record some of my dreams here. everyone's dreams r weird..but v interesting tho none of it makes much sense at all. some of mine hav appeared as visions of the future.. giving me the occasional DeJaVu goosebumps. at times i wonder if i rly can predict the future..and tht all my tyco-ness is just one serious chunk of luck on my part.

for my benefit i shall jus describe wad i rmb in my last dream. even I find it hard to understand.. its unlikely it'l make sense to any1 else.

immaculate conception.
Zoe's mum.
Another LT in the 'mirror'
Saved Zoe from embarrassment.
SY and Jason were talking freak pics.
PC was my sister.

&*^%&* thts all i can freakin rmb..i swear there was more. there always is.

Chapter 9: Dilemna

2008-04-11T20:05:00.004+08:00

i gt an A for pw. woohoo. nth exciting..jus a sense of relief after twas announced. sure it made our hard work pay off.. but tht A is worth nuts cos practically everyone- including slackbutt losers, got it (n other skuls too) Nt forgetting e fact tht oni a strange country like Sg wants it for uni entry. for those who gt B...well..dun fret cos its gettin scrapped nxt yr anw..pretty much shows how impt it is.
Nonetheless... an A is an A...and i tink God deserves some thanks. sadlyy 6 ppl in my cls gt a B..so i shud rly b grateful.

okk so on tues some of my classmates went out to eat at Suki Sushi or wadever-shitname-sushi bar in town. 5 of them went to eat first. Daniel had to leave earlier..so he left after a while. den Eric who came later, joined dem after Dan left. when it was time to pay..the cashier oni charged for 4 persons. ... huh?? yeap 'huh' is the word. charge wrongly oso charge according to the number of persons who came in/ r leaving (5) rite? duno wad the siao kia doin behind the counter.

anw. they went to tell Daniel abt e supposedly gd news. Hah. but Dan tot otherwise. i wldnt b surprised..hes jus tht sort of person whose angelic side decimates x decimates wadever pathetic evil tots tht resides in his sparklin' clean brain. activating his model student self, he ran up to pay for the remainin 2 persons. after tht..the girls gt into a quarrel wit him..scolding him for bein silly. but u cant blame him.. hes 1 dude who doesnt laugh at the topic of porn. the girls reluctantly paid him back..tho the guys were just neutral rly. accordin to him, Felicia said: " im paying u bak oni cuz i dun wan to owe u any money." and i also hrd bernice gossiping abt him the nxt day, grumbling and w/e.

so hu is in the wrong? Dan? the girls? the kuku cashier? or no one? on one hand we've all bin taught to b honest citizens..on the other..i believe ppl do deserve to screw these money-cheatin restaurants sumtimes. tsktsk. the girls hu complained..were they bein stingy? ( dey are pretty rich brats) or jus er...street smart? iuno. Dan was nt wrong..thts definite. but e oni thing his honest money did was made some richie rich owner richer.
nt to say the girls were right. i mean..they dun hav the right to complain lah. firstly..they cheated. den dey still cant bear to giv up an extra bit of money they shud hav given. according to Christian teachings..thts called succumbing to the temptation of material wealth.

btw xiuwen. u oso nv give bak xtra change..so u dun deserve to say the girls were wrong LOL

Chapter 8: Cheery

2008-04-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

im feelin' gd today. once again ive forgiven myself for joining angklung... wooo~ our concert was definitely sth 4 those who were dere to rmb.. e music was awesome..playing- simply fun n exciting. best of all..the hard work we put in finally paid off in multiple folds. oni thing i forgot to do is take pictures to commerate possibly the last grandly important day of my affliation with e angklungnites.

kay its late. go sleep. pw results tmr..yawnz. bo chap lah